Elusive
Farewell
[Intro: Elusive]
Yeah..
Usually, my music is about me..
And the way I see things..
But for this next song..
I'm gonna be telling your story..
From your point of view..
Let's see how close I am..
Uh..

[Verse 1: Elusive]
If I was full of love, would you love me?
All I wanted was, someone to hug me
I couldn't see the beauty, looking in the mirror
All I hear is all the other kids telling me I'm dumb and ugly
I'm not worthy, cause every time I ever fell for someone else
It seems like it was just to hurt me
I got what I deserved, and I can only blame myself for
Putting trust in people, when they all desert me
But my life might be a short ride
So I've gotta be strong, and let the doubt hide
Life's an outfit, that I ain't fitting in
Cause the only time, I belong is when I'm on the outside
And now I wake up to a bad dream
See, when I found myself - I lost my self-esteem
I'm depressed, but I guess you must be deaf
You don't even seem to hear a single thing, when I try and scream..

[Hook: Faith Williams]
I wanted to love you..
But you wouldn't love me, for me..
All that leaves..
Is to say farewell..
I didn't want to say goodbye to you..
But you didn't give me a chance, to be true..
To myself..
All that's left, is farewell..

[Verse 2: Elusive]
Afraid of love, but I seek connection
Looking at myself, I see an imperfection
What if it's misdirection? I got nowhere left to go
So I pushed away the people tryna show affection
The wrong one's I put trust in
Life passes by, but I guess I'm still adjusting
At the start I couldn't deal, I was crushed
But if my heart is made of steel, why do I feel like it's rusting
If I'm worthless, why should I be proud?
Screaming loud, cause I can only do what I'm allowed
I never had a handout, so I hold my hand out
Hoping it might help me stand out, from the crowd
Cause people treat me like I'm made of glass
About to break, and you don't see me when I'm walking past
Just let my voice be heard, is that too much to ask?
I didn't want the drama, so here I hide behind a mask..

[Hook]

[Bridge: Elusive / Faith Williams]
All I really wanted, was someone I could hold..
So I don't feel alone, when night falls and it's cold..
Look into my soul, and tell me what you see..
I tried to open up, but I am only me..

[Verse 3: Elusive]
In my mind, it's like a whirlwind
I'd been hurt so many times, I could near end
My life, but then I met a rapper who would open my eyes
And it was nice, but of course, he just lost a girlfriend
Together, it was only comfort we found
If you ever needed me, I would always be round
But I had it all backwards, cause the truth is
To you, I felt more like, I was just another rebound
And still you never wanted sex
I guess at least I had that in common, with your ex
Then I saw my life cave in, and though I needed saving
I don't need your superhero complex
Reading back messages you once sent
And still now, I am not sure, what it all meant
Like how could I rely on somebody
Who just keeps threatening to leave me at any moment..

[Hook]

[Outro: Elusive]
Yeah..
So I guess that's it..
You know I never meant to hurt you though..
I just wanted you to know, that I understand..
Cause to me, you really are amazing..
And I just felt, your side of the story had to be told..
Before I'm gone..