I wish that i could take back every drunken night so selfishly keeping myself distant and doubtful and basically an asshole and i tried to stay young and in the womb of a bottle but i just keep on getting older and the bottles keep piling up. it's such a foolish attempt to hold on to a time when idiocy had no consequence. and i'll try to keep singing over the telephone ringing. running from the age i should be embracing (we're all so satisfied to be just barely alive) for lack of anything better to do, for all the shit i have to swallow.. the water vs the anchor