Schizophrenia

[Chorus]

Got a homie that’s fighting for joint custody

While my other homie smoke a joint to put his mind at ease

And I’m tryna move away from being just a lebo from the streets

I’m tryna chase that bag, put the past behind me

But what do I do?

When I close my eyes I just hear sirens

What do I do? oh when all I know is violence

Hey, hey, hey

I lost some of my brothers to schizophrenia

That’s why I come across a bit off on the social media

You can never feel my pain

I’ve never been the same



[Verse]

They’re saying I should take some time off

But I cannot shut my mind off

I become one with the darkness

Cannot even show you where my heart is



Used to pray to God to make me cold hearted

Then he made it

Never knew I’d end up being dangerous

I like burning bridges and ending relationships

I get in my feelings when I remember you ain’t gave me shit



I’ve had all the odds against me ever since I was a seed

And I’m really tryna be the best me

I’ve had all the odds against me ever since I was a seed

And I’m tryna dodge the penitentiary



I’m 24 now, when I was 14

Used to hang with the dealers and the robbers

10 years later if you go back there

The same lebos still hang on the corners



This music shit ain’t gone get me no good girls

I’ve accepted that

If I’m a dog you a rat

Mama raised me better and one day I’ll pay her back

But now I cannot think of that

I’m just tryna take it one day at a time



Guilty conscious eats me alive

All the things I keep inside

I’ve been working on my pride

Got a lot of pain I hide



Everyone I’ve met in the industry time waste

Get up out my face

I get evil thoughts while I’m smiling

Every girl I’ve ever met has given me migraines

And I just wanna say

Are you adding to my pain

Or tryna take it away?

I’m tryna take it away



Do you know what it’s like 
To look a good girl in the eyes

And just walk away

Knowing you can’t be with her

Cause it’s gone cause her pain

Cause this life that you chose

Comes with fame and these hoes

And it’s not what I want

But it’s not fair on me

To expect her to wait

So I guess that’s why I changed



I’ve become one with the darkness

I’m heartless

You stunted on me back then

I’ll be coming back for revenge

Break a bitch walls down

Just to get inside her draws now

I’m bored of these whores now

I was born ready for war now

I hit up her friend

Give me the p***y out of respect

These bitches ain’t shit to me

I call her babe she’s just a pig to me



[Chorus]

Got a homie that’s fighting for joint custody

While my other homie smoke a joint to put his mind at ease

And I’m tryna move away from being just a lebo from the streets

I’m tryna chase that bag, put the past behind me

But what do I do?

When I close my eyes I just hear sirens

What do I do? oh when all I know is violence

Hey, hey, hey

I lost some of my brothers to schizophrenia

That’s why I come across a bit off on the social media

You can never feel my pain

I’ve never been the same