I don't feel like me
Whatever that's supposed to be
I've crossed lines I've never thought I'd cross

My only retreat is falling asleep
But I lie awake every night of the week
And think about how much worse it's become

I don't feel like me
Whoever that's supposed to be
I'm a different person every time I come home

How can I be so lonely
When you're in the room right next to me
Why has it been like this my whole life?

I need to say it, I need more
I need the feeling that I had before
I got back and started on this whole routine again
Always upstream, always against the grain
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And nothing will ever change
Nothing will ever change
Ever change
Nothing will ever change