I left it to chance; I never should’ve let this get so far out of hand
But I’ll do anything to not be alone ’cause when I’m alone you know I’ll…
I can easily fall back into old habits that I thought I’d left behind
And they rip me apart and I realize…

Don’t be alarmed, I have to lie
Take everything and keep it inside
I know I’m sick and I’m not right
I’m so fucking tired of living this life
I made for myself, I’m sorry that I cannot get past what keeps me away from the light
I hope this explains my problem to you
Because I feel like this every night

Don’t wanna be like this, anxious and angry or hopeless and upset- all the time
Unable to get back the feeling I lost somewhere along the line
I wear it all on my sleeve and everyone sees no matter how hard I try
I’ve never felt worse in my whole life

Don’t be alarmed, I have to lie
Take everything and keep it inside
I know I’m sick and I’m not right
I’m so fucking tired of living this life
I made for myself, I’m sorry that I cannot get past what keeps me away from the light
I hope this explains my problem to you
Because I feel like this every night
Feel like this every night
(Night after night)