[Verse 1]
I've got friends who criticize the way I can't keep myself in order
I've got people rooting for me now
I've got friends in my corner
But it doesn't matter
I won't call
And I won't write

[Bridge]
Leave forever
Because it doesn't get better
And I don't regret
Staying out all night

[Chorus]
So I chase the light
First, I chased it away
Then it came back
And now it hates me

[Verse 2]
So don't sit there and tell me all about
How I deserve happinеss
18 years checking lost and found
And I still don't know wherе it went
My own irresponsibility is responsible for my bullshit
I was supposed to keep me safe
But I relied on someone else to do it

[Bridge]
And if I'm just an asshole
He's a goddess
And I'm his queen
And I never wanted it to end up like it did

[Chorus]
I guess that I still hurt myself
Because I still think that I deserve it
But even if I had real love
I doubt that I would have earned it

[Outro]
I don't just miss you as a friend
I don't just miss you as a friend