[Verse]
Play the field, the grass is greener on the other side
Take these pills until I feel another high, till I feel like another guy
Until I feel a nice subtle rise in heat like it's summertime
Working double time, there's never enough of time
Not enough buffer to protect my stubborn pride
Summarize this misery with supple lines
Made from the cloth of my troubled thoughts, but it's cut and dried
Still greasy like it's southern fried
I settled on a style that some despise like undercover guys
Money's the truth, but that's also where the trouble lies
Tunneling trials and struggles high as the sunrise on summer skies
Something lies beneath the styles they speak
It's been a while, I've been too weak to peak my head
Into the room to see what everyone's been up to
Look in the mirror, it's hard to trust you
Look at this clearer when I'm less puzzled
When I measure out your love, it feels like I got hustled

[Chorus]
Don't you ever wonder how I deal
Don't you ever sit and think how much of this is real
Spill a good deal of confessions
Rest assured, I don't regret them a curse and a blessing
Don't you ever tell me how to fucking feel
Don't you ever wonder how I deal
Don't you ever sit and think how much of this is real
Spill a good deal of confessions
Rest assured, I don't regret them a curse and a blessing
Don't you ever tell me how to fucking feel
[Verse 2]
If loves the water in the sea, your smile is the rain
Then I will scream out your name before I drown in the waves
I've been down and out for days, while I've been counting on the ways, I could fall back on fantasies and find a new escape
Or buy a new estate, provide a future fate with pride and strength
In a house of fire, there's no time to ruminate
Another summer, I spent concerned my comfort would spiral into a term of contempt
Under these terms, I resent my birth, this earth and the stench of herbals
They drenched in oils or boiled in kettles to quench
Settle the score with a rage I hide in my spirit that may arise in these lyrics
I raise the lines to appear that I may survive
Had a close shave with the naked eyes
Ashamed my hope was razor thin, so I just wasted time
Assume that I'll get revenge at a later time
Light shimmers on cynics in a state of mind that stays confined, illuminating Satan's eyes
Maybe I'm lazy, maybe crazy, but life made me this way
My brain is hazy in a matrix and a range of dismay
I may long for the day I find love, but the longer it takes
I stray away till I'm beyond being saved
So, with this spark that lights this life
Sometimes I feels it glows so bright that it excites and put me into fight or flight mode
Hold this mic like knives to protect me against the tight rope
Bury all my bones and watch the dirt birth a new bright rose

[Chorus]
Don't you ever wonder how I deal
Don't you ever sit and think how much of this is real
Spill a good deal of confessions
Rest assured, I don't regret them a curse and a blessing
Don't you ever tell me how to fucking feel
Don't you ever wonder how I deal
Don't you ever sit and think how much of this is real
Spill a good deal of confessions
Rest assured, I don't regret them a curse and a blessing
Don't you ever tell me how to fucking feel
[Outro]
Don't you ever wonder how I deal
Don't you, don't you, don't you ever wonder how I deal
Don't you, don't you, don't you ever wonder how I deal
Don't you, don't you, don't you ever wonder how I deal