4ria
No Wait, This Is All an Illusion
And all this abuse
I can't face it
Truth creeps in through all the cracks of your statements
I have to replace this sadness
With the taste of the habits I've made in the past 8 or 9 months
I may just deny some
In fact. I may hide some
Some drugs that I've tried to set fire to all my desires
In dire need of dimethyltryptamine
Got me thinking types of things
Finer things
Fibers of morals torn and liars obliged to pour tears in corners
Cordially invite you to fears
Hoarding these years
The origin of things and the order of corpses
According to obituaries, rarely states fairy tales
I've seen pretty people living swell
And the future repels
Fuck it, I dwell
And my lovers will melt in the depth of my spell
Patterns and habits
I fall off the wagon
And land on a tactic like a broken mattress
Popping pills like some tic tacs
Picture me gagging, so I could be happy
Blame it on genes for the way that I'm slacking
Don't get it twisted baby, you're my muse
Everything to me, I dream about you
I've seen fantasies, can it be true?
Candid, I stand by my truth
You give me warmth
Canada Goose
Damned if I do, damned if I don't
I never knew you
To you I was ghost
Funny cause you're the one haunting me most
Now what do you suppose I should do
Faces turn red on a Roxy Blue
Sunk in a pot of brew
Wash it down and I'm just screwed
Days go by
Every day and every night
Never say I'm living right
With the pain right by my side
I go
I know
I chose
This life
It goes
From the light to the dark
I am shot in the heart
Ready to shoot back
Blast you in the arm
Think I wouldn't do that?
Yeah I did that
Never quit that, can't forgive them
I'll never let them
Never get them
Overslept in a dream
Where happiness bursts at the seams
Yeah, I did that
Never quit that
Can't forgive them
I'll never let them
Never get them
Overslept in a dream happiness bursts at the seams
Think about her for some years
I think I'm just sick and don't want to be here
Stuck
Drugs will wear off
As he tears off the clothes you wear to meet him when you fuck
Guess there's no luck to begin with
All things considered
Its hard to not think it when you lead me on
Oh so you're wicked
But claim innocence
Oh so I get it
I guess I'm sprinkles for the vain life you live in
I guess I just paid the expense for the friendship
I guess I just had your romance for incentive
Don't get my hopes up for love
It's just expected that pieces of puzzle all point to an ending
I've come to get comfortable with
Wonder if substances could keep me company while my mind drifts
Days go by
Every day and every night
Never say I'm living right
With the pain right by my side
I go
I know
I chose
This life
It goes
From the light to the dark
I am shot in the heart
Ready to shoot back
Blast you in the arm
Think I wouldn't do that?
Yeah I did that
Never quit that, can't forgive them
I'll never let them
Never get them
Overslept in a dream
Where happiness bursts at the seams
Yeah, I did that
Never quit that
Can't forgive them
I'll never let them
Never get them
Overslept in a dream happiness bursts at the seams