Alienation propels me to dwell
My failure to wake up and smell daisies
Belch hazes so hasty
Parallel to all the past days it varies
Draped in affections contain me
Melting headaches
Sever brains with machetes
Buried in stress and the rest of it tears me
Wear paranoia like a sweater I’m sweating
Forget me and please spare me pain with this pill
They all played gamеs and I feel
Nothings the same
Nothing will convince mе I'm meant to be something
In frame with fulfillment
I faint from symptoms, refrain from efficient ways to display enigmas Liquor stains ways within the pain Ive entered like razors I clench with, Dismay to break that agenda
A phase that chases vendetta
A case to settle day old dilemmas, whatever


Drink like Bukowski in rage
Till my finale I pray
This fate of mine in a mental state
Hatred lines my gentle flame
Hearts heavy
Death of me
Won't wake
Days presently
In the wake of mending several things
Recipe has faith but then we'll see
In sleep, haunted by enemies
In my coffin, they address to me relentlessly
As my destiny bleeds ease
Best to yield defeat instead of playing chess with this greed
It's best to believe
That I’ll be okay

Heartbreak puts a leash on logic
Take it for walks in the cosmic
Spaces that blossom demonic beasts
And on beats I speak of them constant
With schemes to reach a comet
Shields to block grief in the heat of conflict
Vomiting pieces of somber demeanors locked in my closet
Apostle of peace in the palm I reach for bonds to preach
No promises, either I'm ethering guys
Or everyone's asleep or unconscious
In the peak of conjuring thoughts I coddle with
Sheets I read when I get off with rhymes I spit
Lit like its Hanukkah year round
What follows glim
Keep the shit simple like Vonnegut
When the cats cradle slaughterhouse for words I make progress with Apologies
My conduct grows intolerant
In time, I’ll stitch these wounds like a moccasin


This lifes a blur
Tonight i splurge
At nights, diverge to pills
And still
I fight the urge
Reveal my burns, I'd like to concur
With this dark
Some light to emerge, despite my concerns
Persistence
Give a punchline to kick in
My life like its fucking fiction

Close the door
Lock it
Take your dosage
And pop it
Then lay down and contemplate hopes unaccomplished
Goals out of focus
And ponder flows in a mode of a monster
Another dose if the high wanders
Or take enough doses till I'm unconscious