4ria
NEW JERSEY DRIVE
[Verse 1]
Bada bing, bada bam
Jersey boy still lives in trance at a glance
The garden state may all be filled with rotten plants
The plot demands a twist like the top of a canister
On the other hand, my plans were never even manicured
To begin with, I can't manage hurt or convince them with cans of worms
With my conviction as thick as my flannel shirt
Damned dreams, I heard my view of life was built on a curve
Some things ain't meant to be, but my fantasies can observe
Deficits and tendencies, identities emerge, inadequate
Ain't that some shit?
Motherfucker, you got some nerve
Talking to me like I've got so many things to lose
Walking with me, thoughts up in a knot like the lace on my shoes
With this crazy view, sit up late and ruminate on the truth
Maybe one or maybe two assumptions that'll make me fume
Light this fuse with this mic on a night of few thoughts
On pins and needles, life is lethal, feels just like a flu shot

[Chorus]
See, I cannot decide whether it's 'cause I'm high or sanctified
Whether it's my mental growth or the strength these pills provide
I guess I'll live to find, the clear cut truth or ruthless lie
Across the way, I will be crucified
Ride slow, drive slow while my mind floats
Between the comfort of euphoria and blind hopes
Mind you, I've had my eyes glued to the clues
Sink my teeth in grief till I lose every single tooth
[Verse 2]
A feeling that extends from my heavy heart to this pen
Seven sins and seven reasons to sin again
The truth is awfully tense, I would rather just go pretend
That I had a lover and a couple new loyal friends
Discover happiness through a glassy rose colored lens
Since the beginning, I've anticipated the end
Like the end of a razor blade, days will sever my flesh
Roses with thorns at the core, that's where my loneliness stems
My tendencies are chemically sound and tend
To be overly dependent on the chemicals found
I could ingest them then infect my chest until my heart pounds
Till I'm progressively aggressive as I flesh out these sounds and fucking drown
Anxiety may tire me out like society
One side of greed will pry and weep out
I need a variety of pills to keep my needs appeased now
For satiety, thinking back on the past and why everybody lied to me
Symmetry for these similes, don't reflect in my face
Everyone's reckless, smoke and mirrors leave you breathless and blank
Through my heart of glass, I poured an ounce of poison and then settled back
Reflecting on the past while still trying to do the mental math
On why everyone thinks I'm doomed like I'm wearing a metal mask
Gentle laughs follow the hollow silence and mental lapse
At the center of my depression and precious path
Press control, delete and enter when I start to crash
[Chorus]
See, I cannot decide whether it's 'cause I'm high or sanctified
Whether it's my mental growth or the strength these pills provide
I guess I'll live to find, the clear cut truth or ruthless lie
Across the way, I will be crucified
Ride slow, drive slow while my mind floats
Between the comfort of euphoria and blind hopes
Mind you, I've had my eyes glued to the clues
Sink my teeth in grief till I lose every single tooth