[Verse 1]
When darkness starts to give way to a sunrise and I'm wide awake
I try make some sense of the feeling, peeling desire away
I'm tired of days with too little sunshine and too much shade, I may
Aspire for a messiah, higher up on the hill, I lay
Border on the edge of artist and jester, still carrying carnage
Careful, I'm burying stars I shot, just a scary glimpse
With a fit that is all white, but Aria's not Aryan
All these thoughts I'm airing out, can't catch my breath
I'm staring out the window of this half way house
I'm half way down my downward spiral like my idols
This path may excite all of my rivals
Till they're victims of my visions that I stifled with these rhythms
Cycles of my sick condition recycles this shit depression
I'm psycho, no second guessing with this slight discretion
I've invested years and months to dream this up with a new bright expression
This scene is fucked
This mic is strengthened by inflections kept in the confines of my mind
I can't find a semblance of a sense of any meaning
Skeptical, but since I'm leaning towards hope
I've been misreading horoscopes I've been receiving
Just to cope and keep on dreaming, too deep, I'm sick of being horrid
Fuck a moral code and any of my inner feelings
I've considered leaving just to ghost you, seeming bored, still sick
Revealing stored up bitterness and lack of healing
Any willing participant will dismiss this veiling that I'm hailing as expired
Sing me to sleep like a canary, I'm far from tired
[Chorus]
I build and I climb up these hills at night
Try to touch the sky, but I fall back and I decline
I built me a shrine of daydreams and some lies
That may seem out of reach, but it's the way that I get by
I build and I climb up these hills at night
Try to touch the sky, but I fall back and I decline
I built me a shrine of daydreams and some lies
That may seem out of reach, but it's the way that I get by

[Verse 2]
Shallow, despite what you plea, that's just life at its steepest
Air my lungs out at the thought of who you'd rather go sleep with
This heart of glass you kept captive shattered this Pisces to pieces
Gather my thoughts like I'm sweeping shards off the facts
I've been keeping my eyes set on direction
Though my perception is weakened
All that's set and what's finished left me these remnants of secrets
Ruminate on what grief even gets me, tweaking, I eat less
So I just feed off delusion until my face becomes beet red
Bite the bullet, beauty's illusion mimics figments of wishful times
My heart and mind stay misaligned
But these divine, conflicted times restrict my eyes from distant lies
That been described as hives, inflict my pride with strides
I can't deny this vigorous regimen
Lead me to vent and binge on potent pills from the medicine cabinet
Ever since, It's been habit to have a pinch, I've been itching, risk existing
Rather hinge my jaws on these tablets till withdrawals
Off the wall, I'm bat shit, find resolve in a casket
I'm a monster, I'm a freak, I'm unwanted, watch me bleed
All of these dreams till I conjure enough courage to feel redeemed
And all these stains may close in on my face
When she told me, "All the ways I coped won't ever kill the pain
In the end, I'll feel the same
And forced to stay and forced to blame myself for all this shame remains"
It feels like tryna dry my eyes out in the pouring rain
[Bridge]
This fucking story frame is void of range
And I don't think there's much of anything else more to say
This fucking story frame is void of range
And I don't think there's much of anything else more to say
This fucking story frame is void of range
And I don't think there's much of anything else more to say

[Chorus]
I build and I climb up these hills at night
Try to touch the sky, but I fall back and I decline
I built me a shrine of daydreams and some lies
That may seem out of reach, but it's the way that I get by
I build and I climb up these hills at night
Try to touch the sky, but I fall back and I decline
I built me a shrine of daydreams and some lies
That may seem out of reach, but it's the way that I get by