[Chorus: Quake Matthews]
Lit a cigarette and jumped into bed alone
Them drugs is kickin' in and my bottle's gettin' low
I thought, "What if I just burned down this home?"
Laid back and watched the flames, least I'd go out with a glow
'Cause I try, yes, I try
But now I'd rather swallow these pills 'fore I swallow my pride
Yeah, I try, yes, I try
But as I hold this forty-five, all I see's my mama's eyes and I cry

[Verse 1: Quake Matthews]
Just did my final line through the straw that broke the camel's back
'Cause I glare up in the mirror, I see a demon staring back
Try and run towards the light, but I'd rather fade to black
And they say the future's bright, but it keeps on spotlighting my past
So I feel beat down, stressed out, tryna fit in, but I'm left out
Just closed my eyes and seen Heaven's gates, I swear to God I feel blessed now
When you come to face defeat, it put strength up in the weak
So I'm lyin' here just smilin' as these tears roll down my cheek

[Chorus: Quake Matthews & SonReal]
Lit a cigarette and jumped into bed alone
Them drugs is kickin' in and my bottle's gettin' low
I thought, "What if I just burned down this home?"
Laid back and watched the flames, least I'd go out with a glow
'Cause I try, yes, I try
But now I'd rather swallow these pills 'fore I swallow my pride
Yeah, I try, yes, I try (Yes, I try)
But as I hold this forty-five, all I see's my mama's eyes and I cry
[Verse 2: SonReal]
My papa passed
Never popped no pills, pop a bottle back
Can't change my dreams, need to follow that
'Cause to be quite honest, I'm a fuckin' mess (I'm a fuckin' mess)
And everyone think that I'm happy 'cause I'm postin' shit that don't reflect my feeling
'Cause deep down, it's something that's not worth revealing
Before I do that, I'm in need of some healing, okay
Stuck like this, but they only get to see me run
But under this bucket hat, you know there's construction, yeah (Yellow tape)
Never know what people go through when their guard stay up (Yeah)
Called Quake last night just to say what's up, he said

[Chorus: Quake Matthews & SonReal]
Lit a cigarette and jumped into bed alone
Them drugs is kickin' in and my bottle's gettin' low
I thought, "What if I just burned down this home?"
Laid back and watched the flames, least I'd go out with a glow
'Cause I try, yes, I try
But now I'd rather swallow these pills 'fore I swallow my pride
Yeah, I try, yes, I try
But as I hold this forty-five, all I see's my mama's eyes and I cry

[Outro: Quake Matthews]
Lit a cigarette and jumped into bed alone
Them drugs is kickin' in and my bottle's gettin' low
I thought, "What if I just burned down this home?"
Laid back and watched the flames, least I'd go out with a glow
'Cause I try