Verse 1:
In a state of confusion
Don't know what drugs I'm using
Rushing to conclusions
In my car just cruising
Wondering why I'm alive
Why can't I just fly?
Then I hit a car and crash
Felt myself truly fly
Let me back up a minute
Go back to where this starts
Beginning of the thirst
Beginning of my heart
I've been bullied my whole life
Never had a lot of friends
Never trusting nobody
Never had a lot of money
Used to struggle talking to a fine honey
But now these ladies dropping
With just a damn look
My life has changed so much it's got me shook
I never thought I'd be important
Now that I somewhat am
I wonder if that changes who I am as a man
I still want a wife and kids
But I don't know if I can
Cause I got to many trust issues
I'm not asking for your pity
Don't dare hand me a tissue
These are my issues and mine alone
My brother left when I was young
And my sister wasn't to big on fun
So I felt like an only child
But with no attention
I know that wasn't my parents intention
There was a lot going on, there still is
But shit it's just how I felt
Never felt like I've been seen
Even if I made a big ass scene
I've always just felt like a ghost
Sometimes I wonder if my life is a hoax
Can't help but want to slit my throat
Please don't turn that into a quote
I'm not doing this for recognition
I'm just doing this cause I got some visions
And I can't handle thoughts on my own
But I just can't accept any help
I gotta do this by myself

Verse 2:
I've lost some friends to suicide
And it hurt me and everyone else so bad
But I can't help but feel if I was gone some would be glad
They'd be like
"Damn I'm so glad he's gone
We'll never have to hear another one of his songs
We'll never have to see that dumb ass cunt again
It's like god read my mind, this is heaven sent"
You can say you disagree all you want
But it's what I've seen
I know the shit you say behind my back
My hearing ain't that fucking wack
I just stay silent
Keep my ear buds in
It's my way of hiding
Honestly I just need some guidance
But I don't want to be reliant
And I'm just so tired of trying
I'm so tired of trying
And I'm tired of lying
I can't keep saying that I'm alright
When almost every night is another fight
This war in my head, there's just no end in sight
I consider taking a flight
Cause when I'm gone you'll be happy, right??
Cause when I'm gone you'll be happy, right??