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[Intro]
I know there's a lot of people that look at me in a certain way and think of me as some evil ass person that likes to hurt people and do all these fucked up things and, you know, it hurts me knowing that people have that image of me in their head, but, I remember, I'm the one that did that shit to myself.
I'm the one that can't fucking control myself, I'm the one that makes all these fuckups, It's no one else's fault but mine, no one else to fucking blame except me, and I just can't help but fucking ask myself like "Why would I do this?" When people ask me "Hey, why the fuck would you do this?" I don't know how to answer that, 'cause I- I literally have no fucking idea, I don't know why I am the way I am, I don't know why I do the things I do, I can't fucking answer that anymore, I don't think I even had an answer in the first place, I just fuck up a lot.
I need help, I need to do something, I don't know, I need to fucking blow my brains out, something that'll just fix everything for everyone 'cause I'm tired of living the way that I'm living right now, I'm fucking sick of it, and I'm sick of myself, no one wants to fucking be around me, no one wants anything to fucking do with me, I might seem cool on the internet, but once it's real life it's a whole different fucking story.
So if you wanna be cool with me, if you wanna be my friend, if you wanna like date or be in a relationship with me, just fucking don't, literally don't, 'cause I will fuck you over eventually and as much as I would like to not be that kind of person, I guess that's just the fucking way I was made. I can't help myself, I can't get fucking therapy, I can't do psychiatry, I can't do any of that shit, so
Just don't, don't associate with me, and
I'm sorry
I know there's a lot of people that look at me in a certain way and think of me as some evil ass person that likes to hurt people and do all these fucked up things and, you know, it hurts me knowing that people have that image of me in their head, but, I remember, I'm the one that did that shit to myself.
I'm the one that can't fucking control myself, I'm the one that makes all these fuckups, It's no one else's fault but mine, no one else to fucking blame except me, and I just can't help but fucking ask myself like "Why would I do this?" When people ask me "Hey, why the fuck would you do this?" I don't know how to answer that, 'cause I- I literally have no fucking idea, I don't know why I am the way I am, I don't know why I do the things I do, I can't fucking answer that anymore, I don't think I even had an answer in the first place, I just fuck up a lot.
I need help, I need to do something, I don't know, I need to fucking blow my brains out, something that'll just fix everything for everyone 'cause I'm tired of living the way that I'm living right now, I'm fucking sick of it, and I'm sick of myself, no one wants to fucking be around me, no one wants anything to fucking do with me, I might seem cool on the internet, but once it's real life it's a whole different fucking story.
So if you wanna be cool with me, if you wanna be my friend, if you wanna like date or be in a relationship with me, just fucking don't, literally don't, 'cause I will fuck you over eventually and as much as I would like to not be that kind of person, I guess that's just the fucking way I was made. I can't help myself, I can't get fucking therapy, I can't do psychiatry, I can't do any of that shit, so
Just don't, don't associate with me, and
I'm sorry