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You lied to me, all those times I said that I love you
You lied to me. Yes, I tried, Yes, I tried
You lied to me. Even though you know I'd die for you
You lied to me. Yes, I cried. Yes, I cried

You're supposed to add diction but my words are slurred
Subtract my inhibition, multiply my urge
Divide relationships, but I could never please you
Root of this problems evil. I'd leave you but I really feel like I need you. I must be tripping
Feel the weight of all this luggage. Keep my hands from touching
Had enough but your chugging. Tryna keep from stumbling
You promise substance but there's nothing when you're done with
Know the feeling when it's coming, should be running but I love the rush and
I feel disgusting but there's things to be discussed when no one sees you when you bleed thru
Missing piece just seems to leave you
Tryna steer through these emotions, keep me floating
Fill the void in temporary. It's a scary thought to leave you
I fear you and I hate I feel I need you. Feed my lust but lose my trust
Fill my lungs, but lose my voice. If I had a choice I'd leave right now and never look back
I was young when I got hooked, you aged me to an old man
I want it back: All the time, but i can't
Looking fine but it's fake
I want real. Looking 'round for an escape
I want freedom but the present's feeling distant. The past was where I lived in
I want something you ain't giving. I refuse to be a victim of addiction
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Can't wait, need a taste, heart's pumping out my chest
Thoughts suffocate under the weight, still you hold my breathe
Used my innocence and interests against me
I envy those who simply enjoy you. Only you know the depth of this emptiness
Dug my rut and gave a shovel. Love you but hate it
Trusted every promise you made but you break em
You're a drug that feels amazing but you drive me crazy
So gone, no longer myself
Not a doctor but you prescribe like I'm your patients
Make me someone else. Who am I?
Forget the reasons I'm alive. Drag me low for every high
Grab my soul, can't get by
Understanding standing below the desire to have you
Had you played fair, who knew if I'd ever complain
But still we play again, and you always win this game
I hold you in my hand but I feel you in my brain
Am I insane? Move away but you're never distant
Just the thought of you can get me tripping. Sell me fiction I'm addicted

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I write these songs but could never right my wrongs
All I want's at least my mom to own a house, forget a loan
Problems followed me along, and these words release the tension in my bones
Lessons. I have grown. Listen close you're not alone
I say this as I'm in this basement by myself
Recording. Learned my biggest enemies parade inside myself
Learned I'm prone to make mistakes, illuminate the dark I hide myself
These rhymes they help to make my heart refine the thoughts that bind myself
Lost in beats. The response to these
Makes it easy to ignore what it's costing me
My time and energy, fatigue; don't wanna sleep
But I get such a rush when my songs complete
My mom telling me to slow down. Slow down
But I just keep thinking bout my homies, tryna hold down
Either way it go down. Dawn til the sun down
Becoming so obsessed. Working hard on my own sound
Tryna be the best that I can be. Got a dream, I'ma chase it
Slips away, every verse gets me closer. I can taste it
In my veins. Don't wanna stop and listen
Be the illest, that's my mission. Man these lyrics start to feel like
Start to feel like an addiction