It’s dark out, sit in bed I
Feel the sleep tug at my eyes
Still awake this late at night
A day done and nothing to write
Some say it’s difficult to find
And the words, they just stay inside
How about you start at the beginning
You woke up, go on I’ll listen

Is life like this, pen to paper alone like this?
Is this how they’ll see me when I’m gone?
Then should I dismiss my real thoughts to protect my kids?
Should I let them see my weaknesses?
How will they remember me when I’m gone?

Should I let them see my weaknesses?
How will they remember me when I-

So I record the same
The wild and mundane
Cause I’m a whole person like they’ll be too
I’ll tell the truth
When I was wrong
And what I sacrificed to be strong
I’ll write every day, humming away
Even make it a habit that I don’t lose
Cause I look back too
With a warmer heart
At the younger girl I once was
My journal’s like a link book to my brain
So reach out to it, cross the gate
Cause everything I am is safe here in my mind
If someone told me that I couldn’t be myself
I would be me even more through my doubts

You’ll get a grip of my soul as you read on
Is it harder to love me now, that you can arrange all my flaws?
Categories, time dates and cause
Get about halfway and pause
It’s not worth it there are so many more

I’ve been
Greedy and selfish and borderline reckless
I mostly broke promises up with myself when
I told myself 'til I could feel no more breath
I’d be better than this, I’d be better than this
I’ve only managed to disappoint myself
No one know so they can’t force me to look for help
It’s a cycle I’ve repeated and know so well
But it’s secret, can you keep it?

It’s dark out, sit in bed I
Feel the sleep tug at my eyes
Still awake this late at night
A day done and nothing to write
Some say it’s difficult to find
And the words, they just stay inside
How about you start at the beginning
You woke up, go on I’ll listen