Seems I've been saying
Bring me closer to god or
Closer to Mars
I don’t care
Who's testing me in this fire
I've got to get out of here

Day 22
Being on the train alone
Can’t remember which way's home
No conductor on this ride, baby
No access to a phone
I go wherever the track goes
The wind picked up it got cold
Peeking out from the window
It's misty, it's official
I'm starting to doubt my heavy lack of a goal
Scared that the weather might want to swallow me whole
My thoughts are a mess I've got to clean up the floor
Maybe I love her but then maybe I don't
I lose all of my senses when she gets me alone
But then I feel cruel soon as I walk out the door
This isn't healthy I keep telling her
But she’s stubborn as hell and she won’t leave me alone
What I gotta do to get you to let me go
I don't deserve this kind of love anymore
Projecting
Everything that I am
A bad girl
Sad girl
Hiding in the open world
Roads don’t care
If I'm bare
And I think I messed up

Love's lost gone and you were my heaven
I just run but you are my heaven

She's a dream
She’s a saint
She's a lover
She's a caregiver too
How can I measure up to her
When I'm out here like a mule
I'm so ashamed
I'm to blame for
Anything she goes through
Every burden that she carries alone
Please stop the train
I'm to blame for
Anyone that's laughed at her
Easy trust in me keeps backfiring
I'm so afraid
That the day will end and I won't see you
Then my story ends abruptly alone
Love's lost gone and you were my heaven
I just run but you are my heaven

I quit visiting your place
I would stand out there for days
I have grown into disgrace
Maybe I'll be back someday
Once I'm strong enough to stay