[Verse]
Okay, here we go again
Drowning in my thoughts again
My paranoia's got me caught again
Thinking that I lost a friend
But this time it's not cause of me
Or something that I did, you see
Something happened and it pushed me
To a place I don't wanna be
I ain't even told my closest other friends
Swear to god if this is what becomes the end
I'll never forgive myself for this
For putting me in this posit'
God damn, do I fuckin' feel dumb
I can't believe this point, I've let it come
In my life, all I needed was one
Thing, and now it feel like it's done
Let me go back to where this began
I was just chillin', happy as I can
Got a text out the blue, saying we should link
Had something to look forward to, and to think
That it would actually happen
Now I'm stuck here, not laughing
Feeling like a fool for sure
But wait, because then it got worse
I was replaced by something else
But that's not even what set off the bells
All you had to do was fuckin' say
"Hey, let's reschedule for another day"
But you just told me about your other plans
Do I sound salty, yes, I am
It's not the plan that I have a problem with
It's the way you said it, now I feel like I'm not worth shit
Why even bother trying to do shit now
So many fuckin' times it's never worked out
Not me, and it's the way you go about
Flaking, never said shit, I doubt
That it will ever work at this point
So why waste all the energy
That the excitement causes, it's unnecessary
The feelings that I'm left with are quite scary
And it sucks, cause you've been a friend of me
For what feels like the longest time
You've been there through thick and thin
I remember the few times that you checked in
Now talking to you just isn't the same
I pray to god that this feeling will go away
Hopefully in a few short days
Because I know I'ma spend 'em in a daze
I didn't really wanna talk to you
Today, because I knew what I might do
Say some things that just aren't true
And then we'd split apart in two
Just like that, over some shit you didn't know
Because I don't think your intentions were to get me low
Probably didn't think about how I'd take it, no
I just wish you would've picked up on how I was different, though
If you did, then we could've talked about it
And move on and not feel like shit
But that didn't happen, and here I am, still pissed
For this to never happen, God, I wish
I guess I'm so angry at you right now
Because I love you like family, man
But I know I'm still gonna feel like this for a while, dreading tomorrow
So while I deal with that, guess I'll see you at the bottom of the bottle