[Part I: Arose]

If I could rewind time like a tape inside a boombox
如果时间能像音响里的录音带一样让我倒回去多好啊
One day for every pill or Percocet that I ate
一天换我少吃一片药
Cut down on the Valium, I'da heard everything
减少安定的剂量，我就能听清一切了
But death is turning so definite—wait!
可是死亡正变得如此确切——等等！
They got me all hooked up to some machine
医生们把我和某个机器连接起来了
I love you, Bean, didn't want you to know I was struggling
我爱你，Bean，但我不想让你知道我正苦苦挣扎
Feels like I'm underwater submerged like a submarine
仿佛我像潜水艇一样沉入了深海
Just heard that nurse say, my liver and kidneys aren't functioning
刚听见护士说，我的肝脏和肾已经停止运转了
Been flirtatious with death, skirt-chasing, I guess
我猜这是在沾花惹草，和死神调情吧
It's arrivederci, same nurse, just heard say they're unplugging me
永别了，那护士又说他们正在取下仪器
And it's your birthday, Jade, I'm missing your birthday
这是你的生日啊，Hailie，我竟然错过了你的生日
Baby girl, I'm sorry, I fucking hate when you hurt, Hai
乖女孩儿，对不起，我真地不想看到你难过，Hailie
And sweeties, thank you for waiting to open gifts
亲爱的，谢谢你们还在等我一起拆开礼物
But, girls, you can just open 'em
但是，女孩儿们，现在就拆开吧
Dad ain't making it home for Christmas
圣诞夜爸爸可能回不了家了
Wish I had the strength to just blow a kiss
多希望我有力气给你们送去一个飞吻
I go to make a fist, but I can't make one, I'm frozen stiff
可我浑身僵硬，连拳头都握不紧
I yell, but nothing comes out, I'm crying inside, I shout
任凭我怎样呐喊、惊呼或者尖叫都无济于事
My vocal cords won't permit me, I scream, but it's not aloud
即便发出了声音也小得可怜
You put your arm around Momma to calm her, wow
你紧抱着妈妈安慰她，哇
I just thought about the aisle I'll never get to walk us down
我又想起了那条走廊，我还没带你们走到过尽头
Never see you graduate in your caps and gowns
我再也看不到你戴学术帽穿礼袍毕业的样子了
It's 'bout to be 2008, how's this happening now?
马上就是2008年了，怎么会发生这种事啊
I've got so much more to do
我还有好多事情没做
And, Proof, I'm truly sorry if I let you down
还有，Proof，如果让你失望了，我真的真的很抱歉
But this tore me in two, the thought of no more me and you
但一想起你和我已经阴阳两隔，我就悲痛欲绝
You gave me shoes, Nikes like new for me for school
你给我崭新的Nike鞋，让我穿着去上学
Doody, I'm trying, but you, you were the glue that binded
便便，我尽力了，但你，你才是凝聚一切的核心
So many things—time, I'd give anything to rewind it
时间啊，我愿意付出一切来倒转它
I had to walk down my halls and constantly be reminded by pictures all on my walls
每每经过客厅，我都不得不被墙上的照片提醒
And I couldn't sleep at night 'cause
夜晚我无法安心入眠
That image burned in my brain of you on that table
你躺在手术台，我趴倒在你身上，没能及时救下你
Me falling across your body, not able to stand to save
那幅画面一直在我脑海里燃烧
God, why did you take him?
上帝啊，为什么你要从我身边夺走他？
I'm tryna keep his legacy alive, but I'm dying
我试着将他的遗产发扬光大，但我就要死了
Where's Nathan?
Nathan在哪？
Little ladies, be brave, take care of your mother
小姑娘们，勇敢点儿，照顾好你们的妈妈
Smile pretty for pictures, always cherish each other
微笑合张影，要永远珍惜彼此
I'll always love ya, and I'll be in the back of your memory
我永远爱你们，我会活在你们的记忆深处
And I know you'll never forget me
因为我知道你们不会忘记我
Just don't get sad when remembering
回想起我的时候千万不要悲伤难过
And, little bro, keep making me proud
还有，弟弟，要继续让我以你为傲啊
You better marry that girl 'cause she's faithfully down
你最好娶那个女孩儿，她是真地爱你
And when you're exchanging those sacred vows
你们交换结婚誓词的时候
Just know that if I could be there, I would
要是我还能到场的话，我一定不会缺席的
And should you ever see parenthood, I know you'll be good at it
如果你快要做爸爸了，我知道你一定会做得很好
Oh, almost forgot to do something, thank my father too
噢，差点忘了，也要感谢我的爸爸
I actually learned a lot from you
其实我从你那儿学到很多
You taught me what not to do
你教会了我什么事不能做
And, Mom, wish I'd have had the chance
还有，妈妈，多希望我还有机会
To have one last heart-to-heart honest and open talk with you
和你进行最后一次开诚布公的交谈
Doody, I see you, I go to walk to you
便便，我看到你了，我向你走去
And I can feel my soul leave my body and float across the room
我感到我的灵魂正在脱离肉体，在这房间飘荡
Nurses lean over the bed, pulling tubes out
护士们弯下身拔掉接在我身上的管子
Then the sheet over my head, shut the room down
然后把布盖在我头上，关上了房门
Girls, please don't get upset
女孩儿们，不要难过
I see them cheeks soaking and wet
我看到眼泪打湿了你们的脸颊
As you squeeze hold of my neck, so forcibly, don't wanna let me go
你们紧紧抱着我的脖子，如此用力，不想让我离去
Pillow drenched, emotional wrecks
泪水浸湿枕头，情绪崩溃
With every second, each closer to death
每一秒我都离死神更近
But suddenly I feel my heart begin to beat slow
突然我感到心脏开始缓慢跳动
Then a breath, machines go (*beep beep beep*)
然后我有了呼吸，机器哔哔作响
Must've guessed the cheat codes to this shit
我猜自己可能侥幸骗过了死神
I'm tryna rewind time like a tape
我试着倒转时间，就像倒带一张唱片
Find an escape, make a beeline
找到逃生出口，头也不回地径直离开
Try and awake from this dream
挣扎着从这场梦中醒过来
I need to re-find my inner strength to remind me
重新找回内心深处的力量，让我醒悟
Even if a steep climb I must take to rewrite a mistake
就算要攀登陡坡才能改写犯下的错误
I'm rewinding the tape
我也义无反顾
[Part II: Castle Extended]

(I don't want it!)
（我不想再说唱了！）
I'll put out this last album, then I'm done with it
发了最后这张专辑我就不干了
One hundred percent finished, fed up with it
彻彻底底的结束，我实在受够了
I'm hanging it up, fuck it!
我要结束自己的生涯，操
Excuse the cursing, baby, but just know
原谅我说脏话了，宝贝，可你要知道
That I'm a good person, though they portray me as cold
尽管人们说我冷血无情，但我是个好人
And if things should worsen, but I bet you they won't
如果情况恶化，但我打赌不会的
I'm pledging to throw this methadone in the toilet
我保证会把美沙酮扔进马桶
Shred these old letters I wrote
撕碎我以前写下的信件
All that old pathetic loathing, closing credits can roll
之前那些可悲的厌恶可以像片尾字幕一样滚了
I'm proud to be back
我很骄傲能重新回归
I'm 'bout to, like a rematch, outdo Relapse
好像一场复赛，我要带着Recovery和Mathers LP2
With Recovery, Mathers LP2
超越Relapse
Help propel me to victory laps
带着我逼近胜利
Gas toward 'em and fast forward the past
加速向前，把过去快进播放
Consider them last four minutes as
要是我晚两个小时才到医院
The song I'da sang to my daughters
那就把上四分钟
If I'da made it to the hospital less than 2 hours later
当作我给女儿们留下的最后一首歌吧
But I fought it
但我挺过去了
And came back like a boomerang on 'em
并像回旋镖一样归来
Now a new day is dawnin'
此刻黎明带来新的一天
I'm up, Tuesday, it's mornin'—now I know
我起床了，现在是星期二早上——我清醒了