(Intro)
Thank you everybody for attending the service tonight
It was a real pleasure
But we're gonna wrap it now I think
I do hope you enjoy
Yeah, yeah

(Verse 1)
I don't claim to know a lot, I just jot what I observe
Vivid pictures shift to words, then reverse if I prefer
Well beyond my years, and here's where you hear it
Since the past year or so has broken souls and nation's spirit
Concerned we've reached a pattern of living through mental's shattered
And scattered, but this pencil's always been here when it's mattered
And though leaving instrumentals battered and bruised is cool
The tunes abuse can wait, the weight on my soul is true
It's too heavy, back track back to a point when I was twenty
Or nineteen actually, I was dropping casually
Not at full potential and no not at full capacity
Believed that I was fly til time supplied gravity
First part of this song assessed the world and naturally
It seems like a youth who's on the brink of life's realities
Who thought that he was top of his class at the academy
In actuality, he's failing fast due to fallacies
Thinking those part-time raps good enough
You know what really sucks?
Thinking how much growth that I could’ve had and would if I penned more stuff
Yo, that thought is tough
I weave words to depict my progression
And make you recognize that I've grasped many lessons
In time past, I rhyme fast and I, I, I scheme slow
I've had my ups and downs but the downs were ski slopes
Yeah I mean steep ones but now I've found a heat son
Something reignited, stove click and then the heat come
Breaks, I don't need one and never will
Cause I'm getting better still
I'm tryna be the man and have banks like Uncle Phil
(Hook)
...I don't understand, no I don't understand, I know
...I'm still so young in a world so grand, I know
Admitting that I could learn more, tells me I know more than the old me did already
So I'ma keep at it, til I'm the best at it, and when that day comes I'll be ready

(Verse 2)
COVID showed the world how quickly it could unfurl
Stuck inside, confined, while-the-clock sped its twirl
Year and a half after and shit don't feel the same since
I don’t mean the graphs, I imply in a different sense
Everybody's past tense, think about it past tense
Really took for granted all the things we did in passed '10s
Now it's feeling absent, progressions at its slowest
Mentally, of course, interactions at its lowest
Toe to toe with a sickness I'm sick of it
I'm frustrated that some are in the thick of it
Still, when will it end, it seems soon
This, air of doom is old, let life resume
I just wanna see smiles, people's expressions and styles
Put this shit in history's files and be okay for a while
Please, put our minds at ease, I don't get how it got so bad
But I want the old life back, I sing-

(Hook)
I don't understand, no I don't understand, I know
I'm still so young in a world so grand, I know
Admitting that I could learn more, tells me I know more than the old me did already
So I'ma keep at it, til I'm the best at it, and when that day comes I'll be ready
(Verse 3)
Birthday just past, 22s my age
It's got me self-reflecting on my views and my ways
On my tunes, on my plays, what I choose, on my pay
How it feels to be confused bout the path my life paved
At the same, time, they feign, lines, like they understand my plight, but they don't know in the slight
I'm crying out for assistance but too proud to persist it
Amidst this, I'ma speak my truth into existence
I'll admit, I got four digits in my bank
Fuck the flexing for a minute I'm just tryna be frank
I'm scared to death that an event will have my cash reset
And put a hold on my life, I'm tryna shake some regrets
I look back on a kid who thought he was invincible
Not putting in the hours but expecting a reciprocal
Lazy ain't the word, more like unmotivated
All the steps I could've took but didn't, humiliated
Understatement, I know it's not healthy to dwell
But I'm just tryna get it out, these thoughts is giving me hell
And the person that I am, I'd say I'm proud of myself
Brain had to scramble a bit before I cracked out my shell
And well, the rest, history as it goes
It took a long damn time to admit all these woes
I don't understand a lot but I know what I know
And the things that I don't will come in time, it'll show