[Intro: Nate Vickers]
I can't make you pray for me now
Don't need your sympathy, I
Just want the love that I deserve when
All I do is hurt myself

[Verse 1: Ekoh]
And I been tryin' to hide
But I know it’s just a matter of time until I break down
All the stress that I hold too much weight now
Got these pills I don’t really wanna take
But it feels like I walk in the devil's playground
Rain clouds in the head too often
Brain dead in the bed that’s a coffin
Havin' thoughts of the head blown off every time that I close my eyes
No stop it
And I don’t think that anyone get it so I don’t wanna tell anybody what's really goin' on in my head
I just wanna bе alone
And listen to the music
And lеt it tell me the way I need to feel so
I don’t think I’m defective
It’s getting worse every day that’ll pass
Getting too high, I just wait for the crash
Started when I met my dad, and then he left again Abandonment, the only thing I expect and can’t dream when I’m in a nightmare
Everything goes wrong
What do I care?
Tryin' to grab happiness 'cuz it’s right there
But it slips through the grip, and it’s gone in an instant
A misfit, insisting on always tryin' to fit in
Got a need for the love, but for me, I don’t give shit
Enemies wanna see me fall, and I feel like I'm at the last resort and 'bout to give in
[Chorus: Nate Vickers]
Churches start to feel like prison cells
'Cuz everybody'd rather judge than help
I can't make you pray for me now
Don't need your sympathy, I
Just want the love that I deserve when
All I do is hurt myself

[Verse 2: Ekoh]
Just tell me I'm okay
Tell me this is life, and it’ll all work out in the long run
If it's not true, lie to me 'cuz
I need some hope to help me out when the heart's shut
Detached, I barely feel alive
Tell me this is all worth the pain and time
I been slippin' now, barely got the grip
Where is all the friends who said they would stick by me?
Look into my eyes, see, right into the soul weighed down so heavy
But I'm highly emotional but never vulnerable
The bandwidth too much
'Bout to overload or overdose, and no one close
And I got something inside
I really hate and wanna cut and let it bleed out
Hard to let in the light when there’s a critic inside
That won’t stop speaking up, bringing me down
Feeling like I’m in a battle with 2 different people inside of me
The ones who's been trying to hold me together is not the one who’s in the driver's seat
I’ve got this need to escape to the point where I’m sick of my fuckin' sobriety
Losing my footing, and I wish somebody would tell me that I'll be okay if I try to be
[Chorus: Nate Vickers]
Churches start to feel like prison cells
'Cuz everybody'd rather judge than help
I can't make you pray for me now
Don't need your sympathy, I
Just want the love that I deserve when
All I do is hurt myself