I always question why I feel so broke and
Sometimes I feel like I'm losing hope and
I just pray that I can find me
You see me smile but things ain't always what they might seem
It's been a while since I felt peace
This depression has been spreading like a damn disease
I hope I find a cure before this shit is too late
Grab the rope and end my life like Sadam Hussain

And people got the fucking nerve to judge
That's why it's hard for me to vent and don't know who to trust
And truth be told I can't even trust myself
Contemplating suicide this shit is not good for my health, so pathetic
But you ain't seen the tears I've shedded
It brakes my fucking heart to see the path in which I'm headed
Cause I'm lost, and death has never felt so close
Ain't no one else to blame cause it's the path in which I chose
So forgive me
Please forgive me for my selfish thoughts
Apologize for my mistakes and the pain I've caused
I've tried my best but my best is not enough
I'm tryna hold on but I don't think I'm strong enough
I'm slowly dying
I'm slowly dying and I'm breaking down
The day I'm lying underground I'll be safe and sound
And if you know me I know that shit hurts to hear
But I've grown weak and no longer can I persevere
No longer can I persevere
And I can't listen to advice since that shits not sincere
So many years I been fighting with my demons
Used every ounce of strength to this day I can't defeat them
Dreaming of the day that I find peace within my freedom
Cause I don't want to wake up I'm so tired of fucking breathing
Tired of living life cause I don't understand the meaning
And I've been losing sight of what is love cause love is so deceiving
Said love is so deceiving
J. Cole said it best people change like seasons
It's the truth either better or for worse
And I'm thankful for my family but it's like a precious curse
Cause it hurts, when that love is not reciprocated
What you once saw in someone becomes pixelated
I fucking hate it, the person I once knew I crave it
I wish I never met you you're the reason why I'm breaking
You're the reason why I'm aching every day
You're the reason why I packed my bags and had to get away
You're the reason why I'm cracking half and haven't been the same
You're the reason why I'm sad and always drench within the rain
You're the reason why I had a purpose, ever since I lost you I feel fucking worthless
I hope your life from here on out is perfect
Ain't no connection left between us like we lost the service
I wish this was a nightmare
But can I realise that I'm still standing right here
The same ground which I fell upon repeatedly
Around the same love that has always believed in me
Through all my downfalls and struggles I've encountered
Never left my side when my life was going downward
When I had no strength in myself that gave me power
To never let the light die inside through my darkest hour
To my darkest hour, I'mma sprout more than ever like a lotus flower
I'll take my wounds and I'll turn it into wisdom
I'll become a hero to the children that are victims, I promise you
No matter what just know you're not alone
Cause deep inside we all come from a broken home
But that's what made us, that's what made us who we are
Just know there's beauty buried deep inside of every scar
Heavens far but your angels are close by
Grab your loved ones cherish them and hold tight
But don't cry, hold it in, homie don't cry
Everything will be okay you'll be just fine
Have faith and put your trust in God
Believe in yourself and you will beat the odds
Take all the pain and embrace all your flaws
And you gonna realize who ain't broken after all