[Verse 1]
My older brother said when he was young that he felt all alone
My father was never home, he would roam in the streets
Couple days on end, was a fiend for a fix
He was hooked on the hit 'till the moment I was born, hit the light bulb switch quick
Rehabilitate himself to an alcoholic, couple years that a man's shit gets much worse, because of time that I'm on earth

[Verse 2]
Born in a trailer park
Me and my younger brother
Deep run right off of 75 and Jessa mothafucka
We had roaches in them kitchen cabinets
I'm steady asking my mama: "Why is Kevin absent and hardly ever home?"
"Because he left our house at 15 and was leaving us alone"
Said he couldn't deal with my father and ventured out on his own
So then you move us to the suburbs like that shit's supposed to fix the pain
The fundamental problem still remains, so everything's the same
When nothing ever changes
And you leave your real feelings up on the surface
Constantly told you're nothing and you're worthless
All I really wanted was some love, but it's not what I received
When the pain precede then I turn to the drank
In the thing 'till I pass out and faint
Feeling like I need to see my shrink
God damnit, can a young n***a think
Lawdd
Just give me a minute or two
This the realest of shit that I've written for you
And I'm breaking it down while describing my plight
Depicting my pitiful life
I'm stuck in a cycle, no-one is exempt
My father and mother would fight, they would yell at the top of their lungs
Eventually I became numb, just turn up the television, they at it again
"Bitch if you be slamming them doors, I'm putting my foot in yo' ass and knocking you down to the floor and I'll do it in front of them boys"
It's the pain we can never avoid
I'm searching of filling the void that resides in the depths of my heart
And I swear that it tears me apart when I look at my family tree
I've been seeing the hatred we truly protest
I confess I'm farthest from perfect
The purpose of the mothafucking track is attack and distract, be exact with the facts of the moments I'm reliving
I'm only giving you [?] my innocence
Something is really interesting, that you prefer the ignorance
When I supply the imminent
A supplemental difference
It really wasn't feasible
They said I was remedial
Graduating to gradual levels is not foreseeable
The inconceivable is not agreeable
Meaningless attached, you attached to my pain
They probably take it in vain
N***a you should be ashamed
Don't you know that I'm insane
Created my own lane, but I came to conclusion
That fame and fortune is monetary, completely unnecessary
I'm guessing it really varies
To different peoples' opinions that live inside of bliss
Growin' up, a n***a's house used to sound like this
Hey
[Bridge]
Happiness is for a moment, my pain last forever
I'm a suicidal psychopath, a schizophrenic n***a
With skeletons in my closet, couple bodies in the cellar
Rummage through the Holy Bible trying to get my shit together
Lawd

[Verse 3]
Say a prayer for the relevant
But you keep on telling me you care
For a n***a that was lost in the dark
This heart was set apart from the pompous
[?] distorted
Cavorted pain left to absorb it
Lyrics never conforming
Killing up in the vormant
Dormant like a n***a never really had a conscience
You can't fool [K.A.A.N., stay calm] on the conscious
Bitter really shit to make a motherfucker nauseous
Better proceed with caution
[?]
I think about a coffin
A grave plot n***a why not
N***a only got one shot he can take
To focus on getting better and never make a mistake
With the will that I built
I'm praying it never breaks
Got a soul full of hate
From this world that is fake
I don't know how much more than a motherfucker could take god damn!
[Outro]
Will I die alone is what I sit and contemplate
I vent my soul up on the record trying to get my conscience straight
My lack of confidence I know that shit gon' be the death of me
To perish from a self-inflicted wound is my destiny