Novo Amor & Ed Tullett
Deep End // myguardianangel
Part One: Deep End
[Intro: Cleo's Trademark]
(So... Cleo, is it?
Good evening, I'm Mr. B
I'll be your therapist for the time being
So during my sessions I like to have the patient talk for
As long as they need to while I just sit here and listen
So, Cleo, what's been on your mind lately?)
[Verse: Cleo's Trademark]
There's so many questions where all the answers are mysteries
Lately I've been looking back through all my past and my history
Way before S- and all those times
I cried sittin' on my porch listening to "This Side of Paradise"
Way before the time I tried to use my knife
Because I thought it'd be the easy way out
Thank god I wasn't right
And way before the time that I was scared to fight my inner thoughts
So I spent every night letting them roam, I'm fine now
I feel like life is slowly getting better
I figured out my therapy is songwriting
Each letter that I type I feel isn't right sometimes
4am I still write sometimes (While having episodes)
I got some people in my circle, the ones that are cheering me on
They want what's best for me
How can they stand by and watch me write these depressing ass songs?
My heart's ticking time bomb, if it gets shattered again
I'm gone for good this time
No further questions at this time
[Outro: Logic]
Hey everybody! It's your friendly neighborhood Logic
I just wanted to say have a great day and you're important
I love you, bye
Part Two: myguardianangel
[Intro: Cleo's Trademark]
(Well, from what I've just heard
I can tell you have just recovered from an extremely low period in your life
And things are slowly starting to get better for you
Which is amazing, I am very proud of you
While we still have time, is there anything else you would like to speak about?)
[Verse 1: Cleo's Trademark]
I tend not to love no one no more
I guess my heart's too broke to pour my feelings out, been there before
And what makes it worse is
That 90 percent of the trauma in my life is through heartbreak
And that heartbreak caused me to lose myself
I don't wanna take one step back in my life anymore
I've gotten to a point where I just wanna move towards my goals
And not have love put me in a deeper hole
That's why most days I just shut myself away
And write my pain to the sad samples that I find
You see, that's the grind because puttin' my words out there is my therapy
They say music connects and I don't wanna live with regrets
To the point where I pack up my bags in distress
And move all the way to the west coast
The place that I called home
Life in Michigan sucks and I don't think that I wanna be here much longer
Although I'm 14, I still go through this pain and I feel it's inhumane
Gotta realize that life will never be the same
But ever since '19 I had a feeling that I'll never be able to chase my dream
We had just moved out of my house lost everything
3 Years ago was crazy
[Interlude: Cleo's Trademark]
(Wow, that was... alot to unpack, to say the least
I thought you had just recovered from your low point
That you previously mentioned?
But I do agree with you on one thing
Love is a very hard concept to understand)
[Verse 2: Cleo's Trademark]
My guardian Angel, I'll be back for you
Know I've already said this once
Now I'm not in the mood to write right now, so I'm only gonna say this once
I vowed to myself to never find love again, but thus, here we are
Come sit with me in Grand Haven and look up at the stars
While being in my arms tonight
And not to get bold or nothin', but I feel like you and I could have somethin'
Highschool's 'boutta have our time simmered down
So let's have our fun while we have the time because summer's a limited time
And I'd spend every dime that I have just to make you the happiest, dead or alive
And I know I tend to get ahead of myself
But sometimes I can't imagine me with anyone else
All the things that I said August 1st I played off as a joke but to me it's real
It's just you and I, two of us 'till the day we die, no amethyst
(And I would only trade you for my place in the sky)
I remember 8th grade in the nightshade in the back of the 405
The way you looked in my eyes that one day said it all
Anxiety all-time high
Had to stop for a second and take in the moment
That's why I just sat there looking dumb
Reality check, I'm not so good at this human phenomenon we call love
And that's on me
[Outro: Justin Roiland as "Mr. Poopybutthole"]
Used to tell her everything I was feeling
But then I guess I stopped
'Cause I wanted her to love who she thought I was, not who I felt myself becoming
Every think about how horrified the people we love would be
If they found out who we truly are?
So we just dig ourselves deeper into our lies every day
Ultimately hurting the only people brave enough to love us