[Verse]
I had time, these feelings finally gettin' situated
I'm stage five, I only conversation come-through statements
I go live and double up through every monthly statement
I pay mine and on this nine day you'da come and take it
I don't live how I used to dawg, guess I finally snapped
When you lose somebody you love and they ain't comin' back
Somethin' changin' inside your mind, the rose is turnin' black
Only reason don't wanna go is for my babys man, yeah
I been strugglin', only Lord knows
If you seen the demons I'm fightin' behind closed doors
Hmm
I keep my mouth closed
You gon' know if your for faith real when you lose yours, yeah
I hold on to all the precious moments
Despite the way they made you look I only see you glowin'
It was so hard for me to see your body gettin' lower
Now I see you been residin' where my prayers goin'
Go to bed, lil sleep, wake up, feel the shock
And show [?] to myself, I don't wanna stage the rock
Nah, I keep that latch on the lock, huh
And on my lap is the Glock