​j. sula
​drunk
[Intro]
Getting drunk off the thoughts of my last one, yuh
Airport hoes carrying a fat blunt, aye
But it's not allowed on the airplane though, yuh
That don't stop 'em from taking off to Melbourne, aye

[Chorus]
Baby, how you claiming that you love me?
I take the mask off, you run crying
Saying that I'm fake, it was a facade, hoe
Maybe you a snake, would that be so odd? Yo

[Verse 1]
Working up an appetite, I ain't been feeling right
I need to get my pump on, I need to set my sights
On my future, don't need depression, Herby Hoover
Tried to be a hooper but I played the games and I was useless
Maybe a shooter
But the simple thought would make me nervous
Leave me wordless if I ever took a life, though I'd deserve it
'Cause the Bible says that murder's a sin, and I agree with that
You saw that kid with fire J's, and then your heater clapped
How would his mama feel? And what about his dad?
And all his dreams and aspirations, what about all that?
They try to flip a profit on the petty things
Like a wallet, couple dollars, or a wedding ring
But I don't know, I'm just a seventeen-year-old
Living in the suburbs, in a middle-class leasehold
I think I need to be bold, or speak my mind more often
But I seldom like to gossip, only drama ever follows
If I do that, so I say shoo that, don't pay it mind
Want a coupe, color blue-black, with a yellow shine
Been on my grind, yeah I'm in college, but no job yet
On a couple scholarships that haven't start yet
I'm this close to losing it all, and making a call
Jet to Hawaii, there by the fall, I'd never see y'all
Well, in your dreams, or maybe in mine, that much I've yet to see
I'm posted up in my bed, pondering what to be
[Chorus]
Baby, how you claiming that you love me?
I take the mask off, you run crying
Saying that I'm fake, it was facade, hoe
Maybe you a snake, would that be so odd? Yo

[Verse 2]
I don't know what to do about my life, like at this point in time
I need a sign that I am right about the thoughts that's in my mind
I am stressing and messing up, think I need to recover
Look at my brother and he's feeling depression undercover
I need to find a way to help them and help myself
Or I'll sink to the past feeling I know very well
'Cause that way leads to death
And I'd take my last breath
If I go back again, I will lose all my friends