[Verse 1]
I just woke up to watch the sunrise
I sit on my roof and rub on my eyes
One hand on her thigh, her head on my chest
Oh Lord I feel blessed, but I feel suspect
Then I feel perfect and I feel worth it
Then I feel worthless, nice on the surface
Gone on the inside, love when I'm inside
Hate when I'm outside, look into my eyes
I hate the goodbyes, I hate the nighttime
I love my Bible, I love the cycle
I hate the journey, I love the title
I hate the empty, love with our eyes closed
I want the freedom, I want to mean something
I want to feel 'em, I want to keep cuddling
I want the touches, I want the loving
I want acceptance, I want the blessings
I want it all but I need to choose wise
I shut my heart when I say to spread wide
I wear a mask but I can't fully hide
I need some magma to swallow my pride

[Verse 2]
Uh, let's rewind time and
Take you back to when I was fine, man I was
A young one, a boy who didn't know much
Was bronze, but I want to be golden
Lost chances and dances, the old ones
A sapling just standing in midst of a snowstorm
You talk all the positive forces and things about me
I don't see them, I'm blind as a bat, baby, yeah
Nine lives like a cat, crazy that I had got this far
Gone downhill since I got this car (skrt skrt though)
Happy not free, and I know y'all mistaken
The best things in life have already been taken
In the library of time, I'm probably crying
Talk to my mother, I'm probably lying
When they ask how I am and I say that I'm fine, chees
I look out the window sometimes and
Wonder what it's like elsewhere
What's the weather like out there?
Is there other life out there?
[Bridge]
I went to the garden last night with her
We laid on the grass holding hands
I told her how much I missed her
I see her, my heart does a dance
We gazed at the stars up above, just
Twinkling and singing their song
I picked out a flower just for her
How could they tell me it's wrong?

[Verse 3]
I swam in the ocean to clear up my mind
I didn't know what I would find, but
Reflections showed me what I missed, yeah?
The past disappeared in the mist
And now it appears I'll be missed
If I ever departed early, surely
Someone would mourn me, there's always morning
After the storming, don't you know the cycle ends here?
We must be better than
There's a reason our ancestors are legends and
Set an example, don't burn like the zeppelin
A merger of mentalities, reality is lesser now

[Verse 4]
'Cause I ain't really felt the same since the twelfth grade
Ever since I got to score on that home plate
Elders talking 'bout go and find your own way
But they ain't ever really show me 'bout their own ways
I get more lost with every birthday
Doing bad, there's always another worse day
I don't wanna feel like this when I'm 30
I hurt those I love in all the worst ways
I don't wanna say another goodbye, uh
I just pray I get to see paradise, uh
Melting from your eyes, heat Farenheit, uh
I'm always alone in the night time, uh