[Verse 1]
Writing my pain away in these verses
Conducting therapy with every line I'm rehearsing
In my subconscious are a lot of roadblocks
The haves and the have-nots
I'm one of 'em, thankfully I got mad chops
Picked up the pen, 12 years old
Wanted to be Earl
Wearing my sweatshirt with the hoodie up
Like fuck the world
It was me and moms, since the age of 3
She taught me to be me
I wanted for nothing, I had everything
Lately I been learning what it means to be grown
Set off on my own, I told the fam I wouldn't be long
Corona hit, I'm stuck in my room, more like a tomb
After months, it felt more like a cocoon
I rode with Hawkins out to the Condrons'
Got drunk at 19 for the first time, no one to stop me
I'm getting sloppy now, picking up new hobbies now
Like we gon' see who gon' be the first one to get blackout
Nights out at the Camel, gettin' piss drunk
Looking at them liquor bottles, like this one or this one?
Sending texts, shit I regret, but it had me sad
Thinking like, if I took my life, it wouldn't be bad
I missed the tree for the leaves, I missed the field full of flowers
Thought that I was acting tough, really I was just a coward
Knew that there was plenty wrong
So I wrote my little songs
Made an album, called it Puhon
And now I'm keepin' on
[Verse 2]
Talking to my past self on a life he hasn't had yet
I need you to be strong for us, the world is full of panic
The world is full of love too, and you're still writing Tatou
But there's stuff that's coming up you can't avoid
It's gon' be bad news
But you gon' make it through 'em
They doubt you, you say screw 'em
And you might lose some homies, that's alright
You gon' make new ones
I'm proud of you for trying
I know you're sick of hiding
Just keep it going, keep making songs bro
Keep writing

[Verse 3]
Time is of the essence, and my life is a blessing
Got a lot of questions on my soul, I look to Heaven
God still looking on me, oh my God, I'm sorry
Treat You as a stranger, You the only one who knows me
I been in my ego, I been in my feelings
But You still my hero, You providing healing
You gave me the answers
I just gotta read 'em
Angels up there dancing
I'll play the cards You're dealing