​j. sula
​ugly
[Verse 1]
Feeling real ugly, feeling real ugly
Told me they gon' get what's coming, think that's real funny
I remember everything, details stunning
Do me wrong once and you'll get no reprieve from me
It's a problem, it's a problem, heard it many times
Many crimes kept in the shadows by many lies
Feet bound, headed for the gallows, never mind
You are innocent, that's cool, I'll go another time, Heaven cries
And mother sighs, another lie

[Refrain]
What are you doing the rest of your life?

[Verse 2]
Used to wait for texts back 'til I realized
Nobody cares for me, I was just killing time
Ask me how I'm doing, I'll probably just say I'm fine
What's good with these demons, huh?
What's good with 'em?
Voices saying I'ma fail, I'll put a foot in 'em
Front like I'm really that guy, like I found out my why
Act like I see me as pretty, who can I really fool?
I'm feeling ugly in every one of my molecules
But even then I know in time that feeling passes through
And I'm gon' never tell the devil that I'll see him soon
[Refrain]
What are you doing the rest of your life?

[Outro]
It's really only for the moment
Baby I been chosen
My soul showing golden
Guess I didn't know it
It's gon' take a minute, maybe like an hour
For me to feel important, for me to feel empowered
I feel like a flower, blooming in the distance
Happy like I'm Chowder, whenever we're kissing
I could be a lawyer, maybe a physician
I could be a spaceman, going on a mission
I could be your lover, you could be my Ellie
We could have a wedding, nothing they could tell me
I feel like I'm ugly, you say that I'm pretty
Give me lots of huggies, happy when you with me