The Airborne Toxic Event
All I Ever Wanted (Live from Walt Disney Concert Hall)
I can only say these things to you while you’re sleeping
I hear the hum from the wires, and the sounds of the morning creeping
I lie awake and pretend you can hear me
And you tell me that you’re scared that you’re turning into your mother
I feel myself turning into my father
We could lie to each other like they do and say we’re so happy
It’s easy when you’re young and you still want it so badly
I turn over in bed and I feel my heart beating faster
I stare out the window and think I might scream
I can tell you that you’re all I’ve ever wanted, dear
I can utter every word you’ve ever hoped to hear
I shudder when I think that I might not be here forever, forever, forever
And the time we were alone together at the station
You were so quiet like a child and you tell me you want to be taken
I just never thought of you as the kind of girl who would do that
And you suddenly seem like some faceless thing in my grasp
And I'd be lying if I said that I didn't find it exciting
Your eyes roll into your face so warm and inviting
And I can tell that you’re all I’ve ever wanted, dear
I can utter every word you’ve ever hoped to hear
I shudder when I think I might not be here forever, forever, forever
I can tell you I'm always love you like the virgin bride you were that night
But I'd be lying
Love is defying
And all I can think is that it must be a kind of rebellion
To arm these fears like soldiers and slay them
And I can tell that you’re all I’ve ever wanted, dear
Through the din while you're breathing, while you're sleeping here
And you wake and you ask me if I'm gonna be here forever, forever, forever
Your face so twisted and your eyes alight
I want to tell you I can save you when you cry at night
But I'll be trying
Love is defying
Won't you stop crying