[Verse 1]

Chasin after somethin that I'm not
Grew up huntin the approval of god
Pastor told me each and every verse
Always played part and made sure to observe

Guess pieces of my brain learned to disperce
Suppose, lessons were never really learned
Screaming between each and every fucking season (jesus)
Forced myself to repress what I was feelin
Existence was simply just so unnapealling
Told my self to raise the ceiling
But I couldn't even fucking touch it
Stuck behind a wall
And I never even knew it

[Hook]

I just wanna run till my leg's don't work
Plug in my headphones first
Turn the volume up till both ears hurt
Wondering what on earth could be worse

[Verse 2]
Put up walls like I'm catra
And all my friends fading away
It's just so hard to be happy
When you always feel betrayed
I'm never pullin back these shades
In these songs I downplay what I say
Maybe I'm ashamed or maybe I'm embarassed
Maybe I just don't this to be heard by
My parents
But now my president label me a terrorist
I just wish we had world wide rights for marraiges

I'm never really effervescent
Everything I hear so depressing
They burn flags that's iridescent
Then kill fags with lethal weapons
I'm still in my adolescence
Hopin my message is omniscent
I'm never present for family gatherings
Heart's shattering
And I never met nobody to break it
Still just praying I make it
See my fate and i hate it
Satan give me a fucking way to escape
I fucking hate where I'm at
I fucking hate all my grades
I hate the fact that I've never been on a date
And every conversation I'm in
Plays like a game of charades
I'm just a fucking joke
They tryna train me to be an jack of all trades
Just a master of none
Fuck it, wondering was this shit ever fun
We still bumb marmalade
[Hook] x3

I just wanna run till my leg's don't work
Plug in my headphones first
Turn the volume up till both ears hurt
Wondering what on earth could be worse