[Intro: CHRONIC]
Fuck this depression shit man

[Verse 1: CHRONIC]
Uh
Before I grip the pen I grip the razor
I was thinking "Fuck the rap shit, I'll do it fuckin' later
And all I wanna hear is "Sorry Xavier"
I'm worried, need a savior
Doc saying "Take the meds, they'll save ya"
But I don't wanna take em, marijuana that I'm toking
Sorry Ma, your son is fuckin' broken
Depression gone and broke in and broke him
The life I've chose ain't helping
I'm hell bent on self-destruction
I've been feeling like I'm nothing, it started as a youngin'
I wrote my first suicide note at nine, next year I tried two times
It was silly shit like tryna drown myself and neck
Shaking from no breakfast, I can't eat, I can't sleep
And no one's understanding me
I dissapoint the family, I'm smoking weed, I'm tryna be free
Just dig a bigger fuckin' hole, everything's a trigger
I don't know if I can cope, tryna kill my liver
Tryna tie another rope, I think I've lost all hope
And I'm really sorry, I know you've worried and so have I
Barely survived, I'm scraping by (Brrrt)
[Verse 2: VANS RAT]
I seem to hate myself, inside I'm [?]
They say I need some help, I said I've found it
No bottle can seem to cure, my emotional damage
You know it breaks my heart, that you planned it
Torn apart, falling to bits, I remember sitting on the tramp as kids
Seeing all the photos from years ago, family so close I would call you bro
Now things have changed so much, now tears will fall with love
Now days keep piling up, won't let go, I'm not giving up on you

[Chorus: VANS RAT]
That tree, Conor's tree
Now fills a part of me
It sits in rain and shine
It holds a piece of time
Your life is part of ours
And know we love you
I wish I could go back
So I could hug you

[Outro: VANS RAT]
Just know I love you
And I miss you
I just love you