Yeah, tribulations come along with trials
Lately, I'm just tired of tryna fake a smile
Maybe I'm just hurting or just in denial
But I've been feeling like this for a while

My anxiety is my biggest rival
When I feel lost, I tend to read the bible
See, I'm just tryna be my biggest Idol
But lately, I've been fucking suicidal, shit

I always wonder if it's getting better
I really feel as if it's getting worse

I haven't been myself since last September
They say I'm blessed, I think I'm really cursed

See, I'm not sure if it's my time to go
I think it's somеthing only time would know
I feel like Roddy Ricch, I'm 'Down Below'
I know thеre's hope, I know there's time to grow
I mean 'cause lately, I'm just down alone, I'm just so down alone... fuck

Tribulations come along with trials
Lately, I'm just tired of tryna fake a smile
Maybe I'm just hurting or just in denial
But I've been feeling like this for a while
My anxiety is my biggest rival
When I feel lost, I tend to read the bible
See, I'm just tryna be my biggest Idol (Look...)
But lately, I've been fucking suicidal

I hope you... love me before they all pretend to
Love me with my flaws, and heal my mental
I would love you even if it's detrimental
Because at some point in my life you were so fucking special
And towards you, I could never be resentful
You saw me as the greatest and you saw my full potential
I hope you never get regretful... Nah
I hope you never get forgetful

Wish that you could hug me one last time and take the pain away
I pray that we find each other, never let this fade away
Tried to fucking leave but I just feel like I can't stay away
Even when I'm gone, I really hope that you don't stray away

But I don't wanna leave this earth
Before I get the chance to tell you everything you're worth
See, you bring out the best in me when I'm feeling the worst
If I could put you anywhere, I'd always put you first
'Cause every day without you fucking hurts

Yeah, tribulations come along with trials
Lately, I'm just tired of tryna fake a smile
Maybe I'm just hurting or just in denial
But I've been feeling like this for a while
Yeah, my anxiety is my biggest rival
When I feel lost I tend to read the bible
See, I'm just tryna be my biggest Idol
But lately, I've been fucking suicidal

See, I'm just tryna be my biggest idol, but lately, I've been...