– I’m underwater in the cottage
Where my mother and father
Brought me in the summer and autumn
Coming up from the bottom
Take a deep breath
A voice is muffled but audible
I wonder what’s walking
Between the garden of my forme rcollege
It’s not even possible — about to take a test
But – caught off my guard to prove it
I’m a hard-working student –
– throw a look across the room
She doesn’t know what she ought to do
I’ve got you

Lovelier than what I have to offer
I’m summoned into the arboreal to stop her
Snow falls while the crow calls
She goes on
Prolonged, the road’s blocked
The cold grows strong
A faint vision – I drove a car
Bang – collision, I
Witness it so far away but this is – vivid
I’m saying“wait a minute”as she faces my position
To explain her existence
Flesh yearning for
A dream-like world
Where the silence left unsaid isn’t as cold
Visions unfurl
In an illusion of their clarity
Just wake me up before I fall

The stale breath of silent death threatens as your own
Constricted, taunted, don’t let them prod you to the bone
But in the depths I feel the futility of our relevance
No room for control or for intelligence
Yet in your arms I can feel my muscles tense with fight
I can recall my heartbeat pumping crimson, beeping life
Your bare skin, cheap gin, tall grass and your scrunched up jeans
Why do I feel like I’ve been plugged into some great machine?

How did we go from making heartfelt love
To overstaying our welcome?
They chased us
Hellacious

They’re still here
Stay near
For you I’d give my life
Fiction or fiend
Stand back, hand me the knife
I seeyour makeup streaks across
Your facecloth
My teeth – they fall straight off
Can’t stay calm

Your frame deformed
Your eyes wash off like rain
This constant strain on my brain
Is driving my insane

Flesh yearning for
A dream-like world
Where the silence left unsaid isn’t as cold
Visions unfurl
In an illusion of their clarity
Just wake me up before I fall