[Chorus]
If you was not with me when I'm down, now I'm up
I dont even give a fuck only family gave me love
Shout out to my bruh's 'cause they know I'm sickened
Suicidal thoughts, Imma waste, finna end it (Rip)
I'm tired of mistakes and all of the sinning
I just wanna thank God 'cause I know I'm forgiven (Thanks)
Court on the 1st, got my Family with me
I been praying for a while so the Lord won't convict me

[Verse 1]
I just wanna be free on Christmas Eve
I just wanna be free of anxiety
I just wanna be free on Christmas Eve
Damn cops served me on Halloween
I was boutta drop my mixtape
Chilling in my dorm, then they hit me
Xela come quickly
I started wondering who'd miss me
Damn, like scared as hell, they said, "Come thru"
I didn't know what to do
Didn't know if I was going to see Christmas, see Halloween

[Chorus]
If you was not with me when I'm down, now I'm up
I dont even give a fuck only family gave me love
Shout out to my bruh's 'cause they know I'm sickened
Suicidal thoughts, Imma waste, finna end it (Rip)
I'm tired of mistakes and all of the sinning
I just wanna thank God 'cause I know I'm forgiven (Thanks)
Court on the 1st, got my Family with me
I been praying for a while so the Lord won't convict me
[Verse 2]
My homie locked, don't get me (Free him)
If you wasn't wit me then forget thee
I wanna die, clip empty
My momma said, "Don't do it," God's with me
Then why I feel empty? All I think of is the ending
I don't wanna see you cry tears dripping
I love you all thanks for being with me

[Chorus]
If you was not with me when I'm down, now I'm up
I dont even give a fuck only family gave me love
Shout out to my bruh's 'cause they know I'm sickened
Suicidal thoughts, Imma waste, finna end it (Rip)
I'm tired of mistakes and all of the sinning
I just wanna thank God 'cause I know I'm forgiven (Thanks)
Court on the 1st, got my Family with me
I been praying for a while so the Lord won't convict me