[Verse 1: Lil Soda Boi]
I don't wanna be here no more
I don't even wanna exist
I don't really know what's ?
Why is everything like this
It's too much today?
Pour my cup of drank
I don't know what to say
Everything's fucking grey
I don't know what I do wrong
Can you tell me anything about myself
I don't wanna be in hell but
Living my life in a cell

[Hook: Lil Soda Boi]
Happy birthday
I don't wanna be awake
Everything is grey
I don't think I'll ever change
Happy birthday
I'll just drive myself insane
Actually it feels great
It just feels like different pain

[Verse 2: ty maxi]
Copped some percy's
At least I'm okay for tonight
Cup so dirty
I only drink codeine with sprite
And I don't wanna be too long
? and it feels so wrong
You just wanna sing lovе songs
You don't know what drugs I'm on
Bet you don't know what drugs I'm on
Bet you don't know what drugs I'm on
Yeah you know I'm going through it
Yеah my heart you keep abusing
Happy birthday
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[Hook: Lil Soda Boi]
Happy birthday
I don't wanna be awake
Everything is grey
I don't think I'll ever change
Happy birthday
I'll just drive myself insane
Actually it feels great
It just feels like different pain

[Verse 3: Lil Soda Boi]
I'm a walking nightmare
Baby, I just wanna go
Yeah, I don't care
Everything is fucked up and I'm so scared
Yeah I'm so scared, yeah I'm so scared
But I just get ? now
Yeah and you know I'm rolling off the drugs now
And I'm pouring up a ? yeah
And I pull up and I'm still swaggy

[Verse 4: ty maxi]
And I'm pouring a deuce now
And it's got me feeling loose now
And I'm hoping that you'll stick around
Happy birthday
I'm always gonna be the same
?
Now you gotta make a change