Sometimes you gotta burn everything down you know, to build a new you. You know?

Verse 1:
My sunset’s arrived though I’m not there yet
The new me is in the horizon, and I’m scared to death
Rising is the goal I will confess
But my arrival there is kind of a stretch
I’m blessed. Yeah I’m blessed
This is on my chest
People are graduating
I’m among the rest that haven’t
Unless I’m dreaming or overreacting
I’m lacking the reaction of the product; supposed to be me chasing my passions
Passes-aggressive, passive-depressive
I’ll pass on all these anti-depressants
Already reckless of me
To proceed to bleed what’s on my sleeve
I need these demons to bide my heed
Don’t bite my weave
For I reap what I sew
I made my bed, I’m lying in it
More like dying in it
Crying that my life is far from finished
I know
When he wants me he can have me
Monsters under my bed yet I won’t let them grab me
Or the dagger stab me
I’m kinda happy somebody slap me
Or pinch me, I get paid that bi-weekly
Simply, least I got a teammate to help me survive
If things decide to hit the fan she’ll be down to ride
Window to my soul is in my eyes
Let me be the guide to my provider’s sunshine
Sunset, sunrise
I’ll see the blinds, open then close
I’ll see shells on the seashore, hey yo, yo let’s go
Monologue:
Yeah, this ain’t much of a technical track man, ya know it’s just me venting
I remember I was at King Soopers man
I was a overnight stocker
If I wasn’t pushing carts first
Man that stuff was rough I’ll tell you
Had to work your ass off just to get nowhere ya know
I was trying to get promoted in the company
Started as you know general merchandise man and they’re like “we’re gonna promote you man just, just keep working hard we got you.”
That didn’t happen
Started working overnight grocery, doing my thing in there
I went to 5-6 different stores man and they said they were gonna promote me again if I put in the work.I put in the work there too man and nothing happened. You know so I got over it I had to get out of there you know

Verse 2:
After the last time I masturbated
Wonder if it would cease to exist if I were castrated
I hate it, so why do I keep doing it
Figured if I’m me myself then I would ruin it
That’s any bond, any relationship
Over-sexualizing gets my blood, racing quick
It’s all bravado, just a false pretense
I’ll pretend to tent, camping in my own sin so sick
Damping the flames, concealing the pain
Feeling the rain thumping the pane
Something to gain, clutching in chains
Avoiding the gaze, shrouded in haze
Lost in the maze, corny I need someone to blame
Personal responsibility is killing me
I’m feeling the, energy I need to complete this synergy
I’ll rid of me to create a new me
A few bucks, save a few G’s, no lust, feel the breeze, I feint
So another story I was working at Caribou Coffee & Einstein Bagels man I was the baker man. It started off good man i had to get off at least 10-6 am shifts that wasn’t working so at least 2-10:30am would work a little better man so I slacked bagels I started being a baker, never thought I’d be a baker so you know. We grow up I had to train at another store for like two weeks before I could come back and everybody else was training I thought man that’s another story. Going on it’s just a long-story short I’m doing my job man and you know, I put in the work so I figure I can take a break whenever I want to as long as the work is done you know. Uh, let that beat go though, uh! Just a little break though man but yeah just know that sometimes your work doesn’t get recognized man and you just gotta keep putting in the work. I learned my pops told me just do good in school so I could avoid all this bullshit. Avoid not getting treated how I should. I advise you do the same thing cause if i could take it back i would. Enough with the regret, sadness and pain and everything I achieved and I just gotta owe it to God and self-development man I’m going to school right now trying to make something better of myself. I’m in here, I’m recording. That’s all I can really ask for so i just had to vent to y’all real quick. Death to the old me, birth to the new me. You feel that? Everyone that listened to this point I appreciate you man it’s a growing process you know. I can’t say I’ve done everything right to this point ya know. But-but, I don’t have regrets in the sense of ya know, I’m glad it happened the way it did so y’all hear more from me later
Lay on, borealis. Until next time