Let's do this dirty laundry, this dirty laundry

When you're soaked in tears for years, it never airs out
When you make pain look this good it never wears out

While my sister was on stage, killing it like a motherfucker
I was enraged, feeling it like a motherfucker
Bird in a cage, you would never know what I was dealing with
Went our separate ways, but I was happy she was killing it
Bittersweet, she was up, I was down
No lie, I feel good for her, but what do I do now?
Forget the records, off the record, I was going through some bullshit
Post Work From Home, she on fire, who wanna hear my bullshit?

I swear y'all don't know the half of this industry
And it's almost been a decade
I'm behind them black shades
Roll up like it's all good, right up out that escalade
Fix my make-up, "Get it together, Normani, get it together"
Then we make up, well get it together girl, get it together

Kinda lucky, I was in her shadow
Phone call from my sister, "what's the matter?"
She said, "Oh no baby, I gotta leave!"
I was mad at everybody, I mean everybody
Yeah, her, her, her her everybody
Five years later, I got my shit down pat
Think I had it good, and they don't know how bad
Fooled everybody, except myself
Soaking in this hurt, bathing in the dirt
So here I am in the spin cycle we're coming and we're going
Nobody can notice
And I was trapped in his house, lying to my mama
Thought it could get no worse as we maximize the drama

Started to call them people on him
I was battered
He pulled me out, he said, "Don't nobody love you but me
Not your mama, not your daddy and especially not Camila"
He turned me against my sister
I missed you

Love is pain and pain is love, she had me fucked up
Love is pain and pain is love, she had me fucked up