[Verse 1: Meshell Ndegeocello]
I built a castle out of trees and pretty scenes
I woke up and it was missing
It wasn't real, it wasn't real
I loved a woman who turned out to be
An ideal thing, I woke up and she's different
Oh wow
It wasn't real
It wasn't real

[Chorus: Meshell Ndegeocello & Joan as Policewoman]
I've been saying things I don't believe
I've been doing things that just ain't me (or is it me?)
But knowing that this can continue
But I keep on living the same way

[Verse 2: Meshell Ndegeocello]
Trapped in the future, that's so far ahead
I live the past and I'd rather pretend
It isn't real, it isn't real
A version of self that erases thе mirror
So I changed my Appearance
And go out for dinnеr with people
It hurt to be noticed
And they talk just alike and they argue for thrills
It's just never too real
[Chorus: Meshell Ndegeocello & Joan as Policewoman]
I've been saying things I don't believe
I've been doing things that just ain't me (or is it me?)
Been knowing that this can continue
But I keep on living the same way

[Bridge: Meshell Ndegeocello]
But you didn't know me then
While I wasn't a nobody's friend
I wanted what all men want
To be in good company
And go around breaking things
And never think about fixing
Can't let it go now, won't let it go
I been living the type of life I see in moves
It's unsustainable
I've been practicing on a new accent, new stories
Might be more relatable
While I end up with the same damn clothes on
I thought of so individual
Went to the East, make sure you take some pictures
You know it's all about the visual
(Pretty pretty things)

[Chorus: Meshell Ndegeocello & Joan as Policewoman]
I've been saying things I don't believe (I can't be another)
I've been doing things that just ain't me (or is it me?)
Been knowing that this can continue
But I keep on living the same way
I've been saying things I don't believe
I've been doing things that just ain't me (or is it me?)
I'm selfish for my independence
But I keep on living the same way