Ever since you left me
My brain has been against me
Wish I could erase all of the memories
If I left the world tonight
Would you even miss me?
Imma turn up missing

Imma go M.I.A
Imma turn up missing
Dissapear from everything
Now I'm really distant
Born into this system
My brain is like a prison

Wish I could escape it
The darkness in my vision
The demons in my orbit
They take all my light source
Nothing left to fight for
I cry until my eyes sore
Smoke until I'm so high
Don't feel like a life form
Egodeath the 3rd time
Died again I'm reborn

They tell me be happy
Just be glad it happened
My brain is fucking cracking
From chemical reactions
I know that I'm fucked up
The chemicals imbalenced
Probably from the acid
I feel like I'm alice
It feel like a science expermiment in my mind
Take myself far away and leave it all behind
Tell Imma make it
But I know I'm wasting time
Death is like a ride
Take a ticket
Wait in line

It feel like a science expermiment in my mind
Take myself far away and leave it all behind
Tell Imma make it
But I know I'm wasting time
Death is like a ride
Take a ticket
Wait in line

Take a ticket
Wait in line
Death is like a ride
Take a ticket
Wait in line
Take a ticket
Wait in line
Death is like a ride
Take a ticket
Wait in line
It feel like a science expermiment in my mind
Take myself far away and leave it all behind
Tell Imma make it
But I know I'm wasting time
Death is like a ride
Take a ticket
Wait in line

I feel like I'm useless
More than fucking ever
Ask me when I'm happy
Probably fucking never
I don't wanna feel the pain
But I'm stuck in memories
Remember all the awful things
You would fucking say to me
Damaged me emotionally, socially and physically
Left all alone
To rot in my own misrey

Now I'm just a husk
Of who I once was
Laying on my bed
I know I am not enough
Drown in my tears
And drown in the smoke
My life is a nightmare
I hope I overdose
I love to get numb
I can't fucking help it
Mama I'm sorry
I know that I'm selfish
Selfish
Mama I'm sorry
I know that I'm selfish
Also I'm useless
And helpless
My dreams are all fading
I'm living my life with a deathwish