​hamilton
​​evilsoul
[Intro]
Will they still love me if they know I'm crazy? (they know I'm crazy)
If they already hate me? (they already hate me, hate me)

[Chorus]
(Spacedtime) Yeah, yeah
Try to give me medicine but I take pills up on my own
Evil soul, I'm all alone
Had to get another phone
Hit the road, I'm never home
Smoking pounds are very strong
Hit the blunt and made a song
I know I'm not living long

[Verse]
I'm fucking nether now
I'll just kill myself over this, sad to say
I know they hate
It don't matter, 'cause it's all the same
Not okay
I'm so fucking high that I don't know my name
I'm insane
Toxic chemicals floating inside my brain

Load it up just to break it down, I don't give a fuck
Never did, never will
Crash and burn, now I'm in hell
Like it better by myself
Treat my room like it's a cell
Come 'round when I'm feeling well
Never did, never will
[Refrain]
I just wanna know what's real (what's real)
I just wanna know what's real (what's real)
I just wanna know what's real (I just wanna know what's real)
I just wanna know what's real

[Verse]
Don't know how the fuck to feel
Making all this money but I hate this shit
Frown on my face and it's permanent
Barrel to my head, need to end this quick
Yeah, I know I'm sick and I'm not getting better
Love all the rain and the awful weather
Cracks in my heart, take the drugs to forget it

Fuck the nonsense, I'm moving on, bitch
Take her out my conscience, she make me nauseous
Feel like gin and tonic, the way I'm off it
I'ma die before I'm sober
Live fast, no tomorrow, it ain't promised
I hate everything and I'm being honest
I can see you're through the axe and I know you're froughtin'
Any love that I had for you, just know that I lost it
That's the skeletons up in my closet
Then I got like 10 grams in my pockets
Keep my money foldin', Fendi wallet
I'm depressed but I'm still ballin'
I'm a mess, got too many problems
No matter what I know I'll never solve 'em, never solve 'em
Yeah, yeah
[Chorus]
Try to give me medicine but I take pills up on my own
Evil soul, I'm all alone
Had to get another phone
Hit the road, I'm never home
Smoking pounds are very strong
Hit the blunt and made a song
I know I'm not living long
I know I'm not living long
Won't be much until I'm gone
Careful what I'm ending on

[Verse]
Cannot make a masterpiece, it will enfold in tragedy
Inside my mind they laugh at me, they don't get my mentality
But I don't get it either so I don't really blame 'em
I know I'm insane and they don't know what I'm saying
Wanna feel better but this life's never changing
Hundred feet down, that's where I'm laying
Nobody can bother me when I'm floating under the sea
Wanna disappear, when I'm in public wish I wasn't me
Talking down but they can't see that I'm chasing dreams
Also still haven't found any inner peace
So I pull up to my sheets, singing underneath

Nobody around, I can finally breathe
Anxiety's my worst enemy
I let the nerves get the best of me
Why do I always feel so empty?
Feel like pain is never ending
The way I numb, it could be deadly
All my demons out to get me
Grab me by the ankle, pull me down
But that's okay, fucking wanna drown
In the flames only ashes will remain
Inside my brain every day is just the same
Every day is just so plain
Half the time I don't know what to say
My expression, hide my face
I still feel like I'm inside a maze
I had a heart but it ran away
I had some friends, you know feelings changed
I'm on my own, but it's okay
I'll be better off this way
[Refrain]
Better off this way (3x)
I'll be better off this way