[Verse 1: Three A.M.]
Hit the silence on my phone, leave a message at the tone
I'll let emotions out 'cause they 'bout to overflow
I'll deal with this on my own, poppin' meds until I'm zoned
In my bed, I'm comatose, I just wanna overdose
Stuck in negative head space, the demons never go away
They just move another place, I'm too disgraced to show my face
Felt the same yesterday, the vicious game of drinking pain away
Feelings hit my chest like a bullet ricocheted
These the moments when time is ticking at its slowest
These the moments when I know that I've hit my lowest
Daily going through the motions
These thoughts have their own motives
Facing down reality hitting like a locomotive
Where am I between feeling hopeless and being focused?
Where am I between real life trauma and hocus pocus?
Wheres the fine line between fixed and forever broken?
Really love to know 'cause I've never been shown it

[Verse 2: hamilton]
I know I'm lost cause, never get things right
Walking all alone, I could die tonight
Nobody would know and nobody would care
Exhale my pain, now there's smoke in the air
I know that it's clear that I don't fit in
Feel so uncomfortable in my skin
Laying in bed and I feel so stuck
I hate the whole world, yeah, I know it's fucked
Something is wrong with me and it can't be fixed
Your fucking dishonesty just making me sick
Making me cringe
Making me wish that I didn't exist like every day
Tortured in my own brain
Yeah, I know it's a shame
I got nothing to say, I got nowhere to go
Feel like nobody wants me
I tend to push away those who love me
[Chorus: hamilton]
The pills they gave me just aren't working
The happy gears inside my head still aren't turning
Drink to numb the pain, now my stomach burning
If you call him your man, why his pockets hurting?
You already know mine are swole as fuck
Mix margelia with the trues, I ain't slowin up
If you ain't talking money then I ain't showin up
If they ain't showin' love, then I don't give a fuck

[Bridge: hamilton]
If they ain't showin' love, then I don't give a fuck
If you ain't talking money then
I ain't showin up
I can't love you, girl, 'cause I love these drugs
'Cause I love these drugs
I can't love you, girl, 'cause I love these drugs
Yeah, yeah

[Verse 3: Three A.M.]
Ever since I've tried to write a track about sobriety
Like I'm dealing with a post operative lobotomy
I'm feeling, I can't master an intelligent dichotomy
In my drunken state, I thought way more philosophically
I tend to have a better vision with my fucked up chemistry
Almost like I'm bottling anger that I'm harboring
I used to fire off these tracks semi-automatically
I feel that I've been running out of ammunition recently
I've given up the part of me that made my last masterpiece
I've given up that part of me, I've killed him off so tragically
Put him on display like a catastrophic centerpiece
Left in the open for the world to watch him slowly bleed
Been a few months since that part of me became deceased
Had to erase him, make the old me obsolete
The never ending vicious cycle replays memories
Flashing through my mind so frequently
Reminisce so vividly
[Chorus: hamilton]
The pills they gave me just aren't working
The happy gears inside my head still aren't turning
Drink to numb the pain, now my stomach burning
If you call him your man, why his pockets hurting?
You already know mine are swole as fuck
Mix margelia with the trues, I ain't slowin up
If you ain't talking money then I ain't showin up
If they ain't showin' love, then I don't give a fuck
If they ain't showin' love, then I don't give a fuck