Convictions
The War That Followed Me Home
[Verse 1]
I break down
My mind awakes in the wake of hysteria
It's happening again
I see your face in the place where I rest my head
I only sleep with my eyes wide open
I blame myself, I shame myself

[Chorus]
Death from the front lines showing up on my front doorstep
You'll never know the guilt
I felt from surviving or know the love and loss that's always on repeat
I'm just a living casualty
I thought I left the fight behind back overseas and maybe I'm denied a full recovеry
I've gone M.I.A
I'll nevеr find me

[Verse 2]
I can't escape the flashbacks
We attacked, they shot back
The skies turned black
I watched my friend take his last breath
I set aside my humanity
How can I feel when I've been trained for apathy?
I put my life on the line
At what cost?
My first kill became the death of me
[Breakdown]
Death of me
Forget everything you've known and come to believe
Stripped down and torn apart
Replace the heart, you are a machine
Somewhere I know there's a soul trapped in between

[Chorus]
Death from the front lines showing up on my front doorstep
You'll never know the guilt
I felt from surviving or know the love and loss that's always on repeat
I'm just a living casualty
I thought I left the fight behind back overseas and maybe I'm denied a full recovery
I've gone M.I.A
I'll never find me

[Bridge]
Where do I go from here?
When the smoke clears and the bodies appear?
No time for fear as death rains from the air
My knees collapse, and I brace for the impact
The bloodshed that never ends
The echo that runs through my head
It's a war that followed me home
It's a war that followed me home
It's a war that followed me home
[Chorus]
You'll never know the guilt
I felt from surviving or know the love and loss that's always on repeat
I'm just a living casualty
I thought I left the fight behind back overseas and maybe I'm denied a full recovery
I've gone M.I.A
I'll never find me