Here's what happens: you get a bit alone
Not everybody gets that time on their own
What’s in that box, man, you know it's not my head
Maybe just all the stupid shit I said over the years
Your days go on endless and your months end up there too
I'd let you hurt me baby if it’s something to do
You were the best one - the best I ever had
But even that best one can still turn bad over the years

But that's a secret
I'll keep it
I never felt so old
I never felt so done for
Up on that ladder, how'd I get so high
I don't remember getting home last night
If I keep on climbing, won't choose the best way down
And every night in those dreams I drown
So I think I need a leg up, I think I need a boost

Got caught in that barbed wire fence just like you said was gonna happen

So I'm leaving it to you
I clean out my desk and I lick my wounds
And if that's your secret
I’ll keep it
I’m never going out again