I went to therapy today and I’m kind of ashamed to admit it but at the same time I’ve had thoughts that should have had to admitted. I don’t want to be here anymore. I’ll admit it I keep opening up about this Bible and I just don’t get it. We got Christians out here preaching it but only a few of them living it. Notice I didn’t say a few of us. Can we be real for once and just talk about lust? I can walk into any church spit, put a middle finger up, and cuss give it two weeks and they’d forgive me goodbye to the fuss but sex oh boy let’s not go there well I already did go there and I have a lot to share. “Clayton stop crying in your poetry like lives not fair” accusers and the religious got me walking around with my hands in the air don’t shoot I had sex in Christian circles that gets you judged the hardest but if guys were being honest that battle is the hardest and if girls were being honest too some of them do everything they can to have sex with you two weeks later they start sending Bible verse text with sad emojis and regrets with bad news dramatic on the text dramatic to their friends about them being a dramatic mess too. Don’t mess with these girls who use their shame to twist truth. Shoutout to any real women with love and support if you got me too but middle finger to these girls who try to mesh heartache and abuse with glue and to think you all still texted me and messaged me and even came to see me. A year into my marriage and you got jealous