Clayton Jennings
Dear Wife
Remember when we were thirteen?
I do
And I remember telling you on the bus that I was gonna marry you
Do you ever think back on those days?
I rarely do
'Cause when I do, I think about all the bad times that came after more than I care to
I remember all the times I made you cry
Like that time headed back from Keystone in the Camaro on that long summer drive
And I told you I wished you would die
I thought our lives were over, funny thing is now I can't even remember why
Probably just another teenage argument
Like when I showed up at that football game asking which car you were in
Asked you to be my girlfriend
I wrote you a note in class and said "Are you in?"
You were in
And before long, things got hard
I remember beating up that one kid in your front yard
I always had a temper and took things too far
At first, you didn't want your parents to meet me
So I showed up one night with Tony on your doorstep just so your mom could see me
She loved me
She's always defended me over the years, even when I've acted ugly
Remember when we ate at that fancy restaurant, and you packed your tummy?
It was our first date, and I knew something was wrong when you started acting funny
You cut the night short
And you said you had to do homework
But I knew really what for
I pulled into your driveway and walked you to the front door
You kissed me on the cheek and left me wanting more
You were everything I ever dreamed of
But at some point, we started drifting away
And I regret leaving you to this day
I'd always be the one to break it off
You'd always beg me to stay
I was out being stupid, and you were awake in your bed praying
They used to call us Barbie and Ken, that's what they were always saying
And sometimes, I treated Barbie like your feelings were plastic
You always forgave me and promised to get past it
Even though I was never always good to you, I loved you, and I couldn't mask it
I recall spending three days on your dad's property by the woods where I fasted
You'd come by each day on the golf cart just to make sure I hadn't passed yet
You asked me what I was praying for
I was praying for you
I was praying for us
I was praying I'd be able to earn back your trust
I've always had to battle my lust
And I could use my regrets as a crutch
But I got rid of my crutches when your love helped heal me
I was running away, and you helped show me the real me
I remember watching you cry when we were kids because your parents weren't Saved
Remember them praying to Jesus in the living room?
I'll never forget that day
I watched your tears turn to joy and your heartache to thankfulness
I loved the way you looked that night, and my aim is this
To make you feel that way for the rest of your life
I want to bring out the best in my wife
We're almost thirty now
But I still remember when we were thirteen
And no matter what happens and how hard life seems
We have each other, and that's really all we need
See, God took my middle-school sweetheart
And turned her into my queen