Clayton Jennings
I Love You Jamie
We were magnetic
If you flipped us, we connected
But if you flipped us again, connection rejected
But you were majestic
I loved you, and I meant it when I said it
But our love was chaos and catastrophe
So many fights and threats that I was packing to leave
But I feel like I'm drowning, sinking, getting splashed in these seas
And my biggest fear in life was that Jamie would leave me
It's always killed me knowing that she doesn't need me
You say she's foolish staying with me, and I agree with you completely, believe me
Especially with the way I treat her and she treats me
It's like when she looks in my eyes, she can see what I can't
And when I'm depressed and in the dark, outstretched comes her hand
She says, "I'm your woman, and you're my man"
And she's strong when I can't
And for some reason, that's been more often than not lately
It's always been my intention to be the man of the house and Jamie the lady
But I'm starting to realize half the religious garbage that was fed to us was crazy
We were so close to divorce, but Jamie's love saved me
She wanted my affection, I wanted the people to praise me
I thought it would validate my poetry
Then when along came the popularity, out went my sanity
Would quit so many times if families didn't depend on me
Words in my ear as loud as a symphony
Now people want my money, they used to want my sympathy
Get away and leave me if you're into me
Just walk away, you won't be offending me
In other words, I won't take it as an offense
Even though right now, we're on opposite sides of a fence
I've been so lost
You've seen a side of me no one should ever know
I need your heart
Find it inside yourself to bring me home
I need your heart
I need your heart
I need your heart
I need your heart
So I guess, this is kind of a love note to Jamie
Like the little ones I made for you when you used to write to me
I love you, and that'll never change
And I know every day is different, and I'm rarely the same
But you're the heartbeat that keeps me sane
That's why I hold your hand when we fall asleep at night
It's not to comfort you, it's to make me feel alright
And we're gonna beat these bipolar statistics
After all, we kinda already knew I've always been a misfit
But I'll be wearing that label proudly
And maybe I can be a rally
For other bipolar and hurting kids
I hope you listen to how I'm wording this
You're worthy, kids
Of so much more than this world can offer you
If it doesn't bring you love, then it's not for you
So I hope you do as I say and not as I do
Because I broke a lot of hearts, and I wish it weren't true
But somehow Jamie found me in the blue
And now I'm realizing that fairytales aren't perfect, but they do come true
I've been so lost
You've seen a side of me no one should ever know
I need your heart
Find it inside yourself to bring me home
I need your heart
I need your heart
I need your heart
I need your heart
I need your heart
I need your heart
I need your heart
I need your heart