To every bullied kid out there, this message is for you
You're not defined by your bullies, you're defined by the truth
And maybe right now you're wondering why someone would do this to you
Or maybe it's not just someone, maybe it's two
Maybe it's a crew
Maybe you're at your lowest and you don't know what to do
Listen to my voice and hear these words
You are enough
And the gifts God's given you can't be touched
Even if you've been touched
Molested, raped, hit, kicked, spit on, laughed at, lied about, slandered, or attacked
You're not defined by who hurt you
And a matter of fact
I was sent here to tell you that
I'm a megaphone to the hurting, a light in the night
Some kid is out there alone in his room listening to these words I spit through this mic
And if that's you, I love you
For real
And to be honest, I know how you feel
I've never been fake with you, I've always kept it real
And sometimes I wonder if it's best to feel
Or if it's best to just go numb
Voices in my head screaming reach for gun
Jamie comes in, "Oh my God, what has he done?!"
I have night terrors a lot, and that's usually one
Bullies suck the blood out of you like a leech and then they're done
God gave me a daughter, I always asked for a son
But thank God for unanswered prayers because that little girl keeps me going
It scares me to see how quickly she's growing
Because I picture her at my funeral, and I stop
Where's your daddy? He died from a self-inflicted gunshot
I stay up all night walking back and forth pacing
I'm not an indie car but this indie boy's mind keeps racing
I lick my lips, is this death that I'm tasting?
Is this grace that I'm wasting?
Being a sheep must feel amazing
Some would just call that normal
A life of yes sir, no sir, and no turmoil
But I'm headed to six feet deep beneath turned soil
I don't wanna be here anymore
Go follow another Clayton Jennings, I'm sure there are plenty more
Half the time I don't even know what you're following me for
And this popularity is stupid and it's bothering me more
But I was never born to go with the flow
I was created to reach the hurting and let them know
Even at your lowest, you're not alone
Peace, I've never been near it
Turn this up in your car, I want you to hear it
You are not alone!
I know I've said it before but I needed to say it again
And if you're watching a lyric vid of this, it needed to be read again
It's 3 AM in the morning and I can't go to bed again
Because I have night terrors that won't allow me to sleep
And some of these kids are bullied to the point that they're not allowed to eat
The voice in their head says "you're too skinny" or "you're too fat"
Or "you're too this" and "you're too that"
Tit for tat, a whole lotta this for that
I had been bullied too much, and I was done with that
You can take your words about me and have them back
And to the bullied kids out there, just know that I have your back
Just like you've got mine
And I'm putting out so much poetry because I'm running out of time
I'm thirty-one, but I won't live past thirty-five
All because the deal I struck with the Devil to keep my daughter alive