[Verse]
Yeah, [?]
Depression, anxiety taking over me
I feel like I can’t keep on pushin’
All these people tryna shove me
Deep in the cushion
13 year old me staring at my Apple TV
Watching aerial footage of Brooklyn
Now I look back and I wonder
What could have been
All the time that has passed
Those that could have been apart of my cast
Now I sit on the edge of my bed
Contemplating and questioning my past
Thinking this might have been for nothin’
Stead’ of partyin’ and chasin’ girls
I was tryna go from nothin’ to somethin’
Made it through all of the judgment
But maybe they were right
Maybe all I accomplished was fronting’
If there was a “do-over” button
You bet your ass I would have hit it
That’s not something I’m really proud of admittin’
When I look back
What I see are mostly shitty decisions
Hell I even look back at my cheating ex
And wonder if I could have done things different
Maybe that just goes to show my ignorance
This path I took has been nothing but rigorous
All that hustle shit they preach on the internet
Is nothing but salesman gibberish
Look in the description to see the course they sellin’
And learn to start questioning they interests
If you’re not careful you’ll end up like me
Glued to lies from a 20-somethin' on your screen
All the shit they fail to mention is obscene
Missed countless memories from my youth
Until my life got turned upside down at eighteen
Forced to move out with and make my own way
Till I was back begging to come home on my knees
I had to do things I could have never foreseen
Lost my home, my dog, my girl, addicted to nicotine
From money, and spontaneous trips on planes
To sleepin’ on the side of the road
Where I guarantee you nobody
Fucking knows your name
I think Bobby put it best when he said
I’m stuck in the game
Just tryna get back from where I came
Sad thing is, it’s too late