This the year that I’ll disappear up outta here. And my voice will be something that you can’t help but hear. Still lonely inside and I’m hurting a lot. Sometimes it feels like pain is stuck in my heart - just like a blood clot. Yes, you can say I tried to do this all on my own again. Sometimes I just want my whole life to end. Satan told me to give up yet, however. You’ll all hear more details when I drop beginning of forever. I got a lot going on – despite all the pain. Dropped my debut mixtape – let me explain. My life to you for a second – better yet an hour. She’s getting hurt cuz she keeps giving him the effin’ power. But I’m like - calm down – cuz you always got her right? And yeah, it’s hard but I just hold on with all my might. And I’m supposed to be a Christian yet I’m not living right. And I used to look to God – but now it’s like Satan’s all in my sights. God I really didn’t mean to act this way at all. I’ve fell so low if I want to get to you, then I must crawl. But now I’m back focused things starting to change. But yet as I change – people say that I’m strange. So, I’m like - Forget their opinion – cuz it truly doesn’t matter. And that glass wall in front of me – I’m about to make it shatter. Killing all you doubters that said I couldn’t succeed. Cuz I’m the author of my own life – no Read. Well - God, you know you always order my steps. And I treated you so good – that’s your heart always melts. Let a good person go – yeah, I know she might. And it's funny cause we both know it isn’t right. Yet - we engaged in things even though we should wait. And if she ends up pregnant – myself I will start to hate. They say don’t hate no one – but me - I’m someone. And if can’t feed two mouths – why should I add another one? Can’t believe she did this again. But this time I bought her mom and her sister in. Yeah, life is crazy, but God I see a brighter day. And even though it’s hard – what can I say?